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Heidi's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 2/2/04 -------------------- 1/21/04 1/6/04 12/12/03 11/26/03 11/14/03 10/7/03 9/3/03 8/29/03 6/24/03 5/30/03 4/29/03 3/24/03 2/26/03 1/22/03 1/8/03 12/3/02 11/18/02 11/4/02 10/15/02 9/24/02 9/10/02 8/23/02 8/15/02 7/18/02 7/12/02 7/3/02 6/26/02 6/17/02 6/5/02 5/25/02 4/26/02 4/10/02 3/31/02 3/28/02 3/19/02 3/15/02 3/11/02 3/7/02 2/22/02 2/5/02 1/22/02 1/19/02 1/15/02 1/10/02 1/2/02 12/18/01 12/12/01 12/6/01 11/30/01 11/12/01 10/19/01 10/15/01 10/1/01 9/20/01 9/11/01 9/5/01 8/28/01 8/13/01 8/2/01 7/26/01 7/18/01 7/12/01 7/3/01 6/22/01 6/15/01 6/12/01 5/29/01 5/24/01 5/18/01 5/9/01 5/8/01 5/2/01 4/24/01 4/18/01 4/10/01 4/2/01 3/21/01 3/15/01 3/9/01 2/5/01 1/30/01 1/23/01 1/20/01 1/16/01 1/13/01 1/9/01 1/1/01 12/19/00 12/12/00 12/5/00 11/28/00 11/21/00 11/14/00 11/7/00 10/31/00 10/23/00 10/17/00 10/4/00 9/27/00 9/20/00 9/12/00 9/6/00 8/30/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/9/00 8/2/00 7/19/00 7/12/00 7/5/00 6/27/00 6/21/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 5/31/00 5/24/00 5/19/00 5/17/00 4/25/00 4/19/00 4/11/00 4/4/00 3/28/00 -------------------- Heidi's Introduction

December 5, 2000

Well, Christmas is coming and my stress level is mounting. I had a taste of the coming holiday season this weekend when we went to Montreal to see my in-laws. My husband's family is great and I love them but they don't know how to do anything small or quietly! I can't believe we are going to do it all again over New Year's! Then just thinking about my parents coming here for Christmas I almost break out in hives. My family is actually pretty easy but my mom can barely say a word and drive me bonkers. My husband thinks it is funny that I let her get to me but even though I am just overly sensitive about stupid things I just can't help myself.

AF showed up on Friday and today I am on CD#6. I was really hoping to make a baby announcement at Christmas but I guess that isn't happening. I have decided to go ahead with my life and stop trying to plan around a pregnancy that just never comes. I applied to school last week. I decided to go back and get a second degree in education and hopefully teach here in the US someday. I wanted to just do a post bac certificate or a Master's but since my previous degree was from Canada there were many undergraduate courses that I would have to go back and take anyway to meet the teaching requirements here, so I decided to go the undergrad route. Luckily I will be able to get out of a lot of courses thanks to my previous degree so it shouldn't take too long. Of course, I am hoping to get pregnant before next fall but if I don't then this will be my plan B. I definitely wanted to get my teaching certification here even though I planned on being a SAHM because I wanted to have that degree for the future when my kids are in school full time. I hope it all works out.

Considering going back to school has put me in two minds about TTC. Of course I want to be pregnant now, but since it doesn't seem to be happening too easily it has made me think. Some days I think perhaps we should stop trying too actively and just go about our lives and I could go to school and once I finish school then we could start looking into some serious interventions if I wasn't pregnant before then or go ahead trying actively and contact an RE early next year and move ahead with TTC and work the school around a baby. I guess my problem is should school be my focus or should TTC continue to be my focus? I am not sure what to do, each day I swing back and forth on the issue. I think I will put it out of my mind for the holidays and see if I can make a decision in the new year.