quick clicks

preconception articles

preconception q&a

message boards

research baby names

prepare a birth plan

content channels

ip channel rss feeds

read birth stories

read parenting stories

recommended books

e-newsletters

safety recalls

ip diaries

ip store

mom of the month

dad of the month

editor's letter

letters to the editor

Heidi's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 2/2/04 -------------------- 1/21/04 1/6/04 12/12/03 11/26/03 11/14/03 10/7/03 9/3/03 8/29/03 6/24/03 5/30/03 4/29/03 3/24/03 2/26/03 1/22/03 1/8/03 12/3/02 11/18/02 11/4/02 10/15/02 9/24/02 9/10/02 8/23/02 8/15/02 7/18/02 7/12/02 7/3/02 6/26/02 6/17/02 6/5/02 5/25/02 4/26/02 4/10/02 3/31/02 3/28/02 3/19/02 3/15/02 3/11/02 3/7/02 2/22/02 2/5/02 1/22/02 1/19/02 1/15/02 1/10/02 1/2/02 12/18/01 12/12/01 12/6/01 11/30/01 11/12/01 10/19/01 10/15/01 10/1/01 9/20/01 9/11/01 9/5/01 8/28/01 8/13/01 8/2/01 7/26/01 7/18/01 7/12/01 7/3/01 6/22/01 6/15/01 6/12/01 5/29/01 5/24/01 5/18/01 5/9/01 5/8/01 5/2/01 4/24/01 4/18/01 4/10/01 4/2/01 3/21/01 3/15/01 3/9/01 2/5/01 1/30/01 1/23/01 1/20/01 1/16/01 1/13/01 1/9/01 1/1/01 12/19/00 12/12/00 12/5/00 11/28/00 11/21/00 11/14/00 11/7/00 10/31/00 10/23/00 10/17/00 10/4/00 9/27/00 9/20/00 9/12/00 9/6/00 8/30/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/9/00 8/2/00 7/19/00 7/12/00 7/5/00 6/27/00 6/21/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 5/31/00 5/24/00 5/19/00 5/17/00 4/25/00 4/19/00 4/11/00 4/4/00 3/28/00 -------------------- Heidi's Introduction

July 12, 2001

Well, we are in the 2WW again. I wish a miracle would happen and I would be pregnant this month but I won't get my hopes up. If I had gotten pregnant a year or two ago I wouldn't have all these questions about my future right now that are driving me crazy.

As some of you may remember I was teaching English as a second language in Chicago and I just loved it. I had less luck finding a similar situation close to our new house here in Dallas, but I worked as a reading tutor instead. Since no babies seemed to be in my future I really started to feel like if I wanted to continue teaching I should go and get my teacher's certification here in TX. I am qualified to teach ESL since I have an Eng. Degree and a TESL certificate but I don't have a teaching degree so I can't really teach regular classes. I started looking into going back to school and was told that I could likely do it in a year. That was just great, I could handle a year. I wasn't really sure that I wanted to teach high school but I figured I could try it out and if I didn't like it then see how to get into teaching in the ESL program. Well, this week I found out that unfortunately I can't do it in a year and it will be more like two and a half years - full time. Believe it or not I was really excited to go back to school (I am a school junkie) but do I want to start something I may never finish, or invest $10,000 on a teaching degree that I may not want to use?

We had thought that we could postpone visiting the RE for 9 months or so while I did my school and then work on starting our family. I don't want to wait over two years to move on with this, I am not getting any younger! Plus, that $10,000 will probably be needed when we start seeing the RE. If only we had more money and time. Right now I am just leaning towards forgetting school and getting right into the RE plan. That is such a tempting path, I am so anxious to have a baby that the thought that we could start making it happen is so exciting. I always planned to stay home with my kids anyway so I don't know why I should invest so much time and money getting another degree. Do you agree? This has all been such a difficult choice for me. I mean if someone could say if you go to the RE you would will be pregnant this year then I would definitely go for that but the fact that no one can guarantee me anything scares me.

Weird thing happened last night. At about three am a loud noise woke me up. I tried to get back to sleep but a funny noise from the living room kept me away I went to investigate but I couldn't figure out what it was. It sounded like freezing rain hitting the window (now freezing rain in TX in the summer is not going to happen and the sound was coming from only one window). The family room is two stories and it was coming from a big window in the top half of the wall. We looked outside, looked in the attic. Finally Michel got out the flashlight and looked at the window from outside (inside has a curtain). Somehow the window cracked and the inside pane was shattering, which explained the funny noise. We had to move Piper's cage since it was under the window and if it broke apart then she would be showered in glass. Now we have to call the insurance and get it fixed - aagg. Lord knows how much the deductible will be! What a mess.

I think I already mentioned last time that we got our visas. Next weekend we will go to Ottawa and then go to the American consulate to get our new visas. Finally we will be able to travel again - yay! I really need to get to Ottawa soon because my best friend found out her boyfriend was cheating on her again! Once was one time too many as far as I was concerned but she gave him a second chance and he promised it would never happen again. Ha - the loser did it again. She says she is going to ask him to move out and I hope she has the strength to do it cause she deserves so much better. It will be really hard for her. They have been together for I guess three years and the kids love him so much. She thought they would get married.

Anyway, I have chatted enough. If you think that I am making the right decision by not going back to school please let me know cause I need all the encouragement I can get!!

Ciao,
Heidi