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Heidi's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 2/2/04 -------------------- 1/21/04 1/6/04 12/12/03 11/26/03 11/14/03 10/7/03 9/3/03 8/29/03 6/24/03 5/30/03 4/29/03 3/24/03 2/26/03 1/22/03 1/8/03 12/3/02 11/18/02 11/4/02 10/15/02 9/24/02 9/10/02 8/23/02 8/15/02 7/18/02 7/12/02 7/3/02 6/26/02 6/17/02 6/5/02 5/25/02 4/26/02 4/10/02 3/31/02 3/28/02 3/19/02 3/15/02 3/11/02 3/7/02 2/22/02 2/5/02 1/22/02 1/19/02 1/15/02 1/10/02 1/2/02 12/18/01 12/12/01 12/6/01 11/30/01 11/12/01 10/19/01 10/15/01 10/1/01 9/20/01 9/11/01 9/5/01 8/28/01 8/13/01 8/2/01 7/26/01 7/18/01 7/12/01 7/3/01 6/22/01 6/15/01 6/12/01 5/29/01 5/24/01 5/18/01 5/9/01 5/8/01 5/2/01 4/24/01 4/18/01 4/10/01 4/2/01 3/21/01 3/15/01 3/9/01 2/5/01 1/30/01 1/23/01 1/20/01 1/16/01 1/13/01 1/9/01 1/1/01 12/19/00 12/12/00 12/5/00 11/28/00 11/21/00 11/14/00 11/7/00 10/31/00 10/23/00 10/17/00 10/4/00 9/27/00 9/20/00 9/12/00 9/6/00 8/30/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/9/00 8/2/00 7/19/00 7/12/00 7/5/00 6/27/00 6/21/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 5/31/00 5/24/00 5/19/00 5/17/00 4/25/00 4/19/00 4/11/00 4/4/00 3/28/00 -------------------- Heidi's Introduction

April 19, 2000

Well, I am on to cycle #14, CD#6. Last month was really stressful for me, AF was quite late and I really started to believe that I was PG. I tested twice and got a negative both times, which should’ve alerted me to the fact that I wasn’t PG. But sometimes that’s not enough! I discounted the negative results by thinking that I probably O’d later than usual so I may have gotten PG later and it hadn’t been long enough to get a positive result. Well when AF arrived I was very depressed. But I’m over it now.

I also went through this funny stage when AF arrived. I began to seriously panic that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant soon and that I was going to be too old soon to be having babies, at least too old to have as many as I want. It’s funny that I always thought I just wanted two, but when faced with the thought of time running out I was longing to have at least three. I really worried that maybe my husband wouldn’t want children at 40! It was all very silly because I am 28 and my husband is 36, so we still have plenty of time but at the time it seemed to be a very serious problem. Ah, I guess it’s just another wacky side effect of TTC! Has anyone else experienced this kind of panic? I guess it’s all part of the biological clock, and mine is ticking so loudly that I can’t hear myself think.

In early May I am going back to Canada for my high school reunion. Which, by the way, I can’t find anything to wear for than can miraculously make me as skinny as I was in high school. At the same time, I am going to visit two of my friends that recently had babies, one in December and the other in April. I am really looking forward to seeing them but I think it might make me a little sad as well. Getting pregnant this month would really help me deal with it better !!!! Hee, hee, hee!!!

Have a great long Easter weekend everyone!