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January 9, 2001

I hope everyone had a great holiday. Mine was busy but very enjoyable. My parents had a great visit to Texas and I am happy to say that I came out of it without losing my sanity. After Christmas we went to Montreal to visit Michel's family. It was a very busy few days and too short. Michel had to fly home on the 1st because the flights were very full on the 2nd and he needed to be back at work for the 3rd. On the 1st he left to catch a flight at 7 a.m. and later that morning I took the train to Ottawa. I needed to get a new passport so I stayed behind to get it done. It worked out well because that was the first week that Krista's boyfriend was away at police college and she was pretty lonely, so we spent every evening together hanging out.

My DH gave me quite a scare that I am sure I will never forget. He left to catch a flight on the 1st at 7 a.m. so I was expecting him to be in Texas at around 10:30 a.m. I called when I got to Ottawa and he wasn't home. I wasn't too worried because I figured he was probably out doing something, or had stopped at work. Later in the day I called again and was a bit more worried because he hadn't called yet. I called the airline and they said the flight had left and arrived on time. Well, the panic mounted during the day and by 8 p.m. my whole family was in a panic. I called everyone I could think of. I even had the police drive by our house to see if the car was there. We couldn't imagine why he wouldn't have called and became horribly convinced that something terrible had happened. I can't even begin to explain the stress I felt, being so far away, unable to do anything, praying that he was OK. I was furious with myself that I wasn't with him. If he had died I wanted to die too. It was the most awful night of my life. When the phone rang at 10:30 p.m. and I heard his voice, I couldn't talk I was sobbing so hard. Turns out that the flight had been cancelled (thanks AA for giving me the wrong info!!) and he spent the rest of the day on standby trying to get a flight. He ended up having to go through Chicago, which was a nightmare. He never thought about calling till he was on the last plane because he was just so focused about getting on a flight. I guess all those years of traveling before he met me haven't worn off yet. He just never had anyone to call before. I think he learnt his lesson after this incident.

I was very happy to get home at the end of that week. I am enjoying some quiet time after a month of visitors and visiting. Oh, I got my hair cut before we went to Montreal. It was so long and I just could do anything with it that I got very frustrated. I had the hairdresser cut it all off! I have never had my hair so short but it feels great. I am dying to color it platinum blond but I just couldn't handle the roots! My hair is a dark blond but against the platinum I am sure it would look black. If I get my courage up maybe I will go for it.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot -- AF showed up just after Christmas. She was a few days late and I actually went out and bought a HPT. The negative result did help soften the blow when she actually did arrive. It would have been too perfect to have been pregnant at Christmas. Maybe 2001 will be my year. I am still torn as to whether keep trying so hard or just take it easy and see what happens. I know for sure that we can't afford to look into IVF right now. If I do go to school next year that will also complicate things. I wish things had just worked out the way I had wanted. If so, I would be a mom of a 1-year-old by now. Wow, how weird does that sound?

I can't believe how much weight I have gained since we moved! All that eating out during the move and then add on Christmas -- yikes. It seems that my body has gotten used to the fat and doesn't want to let it go. I have been on the treadmill and doing yoga but I can't seem to lose a pound. I am a little afraid that if I do get PG that I will just explode into a big fat ball. I love the new maternity wear that is more body conscious now but I don't want to wear anything too clingy now, let alone if I was pregnant as well!

Speaking of maternity clothes has anyone seen the Gap maternity Web site??? I am absolutely in pain about the leather maternity pants. I want them and every time I check they are more on sale. They started out at around $200 I think, then went down to $129 and now they are $89!!!! How can a girl resist? How dumb would I be buying leather maternity pants when I may never even be pregnant. After almost two years I am actually trying to grasp the fact that I may never be pregnant -- aaggghhh. What would I do?

Whew, that was a long entry but it has been a while since I posted so I am making up for lost time I guess. I have to tell you about one more thing because she is doing it right now and it is so cute. Our little bird Molly barks like a dog when our neighbor's dog is out and barking in the yard. It is so hilarious! She's just the cutest little thing.

Heidi