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Grace's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 8/9/00 -------------------- 8/2/00 7/26/00 7/19/00 7/10/00 7/7/00 7/5/00 6/27/00 6/21/00 6/14/00 6/6/00 5/30/00 5/22/00 -------------------- Grace's Introduction

July 19, 2000

Time will tell ...
By the time you read this, the following will all be mute so I really don't know quite what to say. As you have probably already read, my retrieval was a huge disappointment. That is an understatement. Well, the next 30 hours were very tough at our house. We started to wonder what we were doing. Then, out of nowhere, DH came home and I said to him that I had recovered from the latest in our string of disappointments. Hey, this is where we were, and at least we had the three frozen ones to fall back on. DH said that he felt the same way. We let the next day go by without much comment on the situation. On the scheduled day of my transfer, we joked that we would show up at our RE's office only to find that none of our embryos were fit for transfer. Luckily, we were wrong. We had one fresh and two frozen to transfer. What a relief.

All things considered, the transfer went well. Hey, at least we are still in the running. Now only time would tell. Surprisingly enough, the days between my transfer and beta test are relatively stress-free. I have been pregnant so many times (four confirmed and most likely a fifth), that you would think that I should be able to tell first off. Sometimes a little tingle or twinge sends me spinning, but at the end of the day, I know that time will tell. I have no interest in doing my own HAT. My RE has me take one test where the results are withheld and then another two days later. I love it! I felt so much better last time knowing that not only was I pregnant, but the numbers were going up.

I am taking it easy. If a task seems questionable, I pass. Trying to enjoy something of each day. Win or lose, I have to know that I have done my part. My mental attitude wavers, but not too much. Hey, I am doing my best - that is all that I can do. DH and I are both calm and level-headed.

Win or lose, we have each other.

Keep your eye on the prize ...
Grace