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Grace's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 8/9/00 -------------------- 8/2/00 7/26/00 7/19/00 7/10/00 7/7/00 7/5/00 6/27/00 6/21/00 6/14/00 6/6/00 5/30/00 5/22/00 -------------------- Grace's Introduction

June 6, 2000

For better or worse:

Boy, those words did not mean too much when Henry and I pledged them four years ago. Worse? What is worse exactly? There could be no worse, not for us. There had been no worse in our past. But now that I have my next IVF schedule in hand, I am really frightened. Suppose, just suppose that we have another loss? What do we do then?

OK, enough negative. I do have so much to be grateful for. I must say that my DH has been terrific through all of this. He has been there for me all of the way. When we first started TTC, he looked upon the whole PG thing as no big deal. He thought that my charting and temperature taking was a nuisance. Slowly he started to read up on the PG business. Yesterday he said that the whole reason that we are put on this earth is to procreate.

Wow. I can't believe how lucky I am to be married to the man that I love. When we say, "We always have each other," that is truly something to be happy about. Most days with DH are for better.

I went to another acupuncture appointment this week. Low and behold, my doctor of Oriental Medicine as it is called, was an OB-GYN in China for many years before practicing acupuncture. I asked which she preferred, OB-GYN or acupuncture and she said the combination of both that she now practices. She confided in me that her first pregnancy ended in miscarriage and that for her second, she went on self-imposed hospital bed rest from six weeks on. She delivered a healthy son. She has advised me to put myself in bed whenever I can the next time I am pregnant. Whatever it takes, right? Now that I have an IVF scheduled, she is working to strengthen my kidney and liver functions. Those organs process the hormones used in IVF, so the stronger the better is the thought.

DH and I are half way through our antibiotics. Now this upcoming cycle seems more real. Only 10 days before I start Lupron. In the meantime we are taking time out to enjoy the simple and not so simple pleasures of life.

We are still working on our house, going for walks and seeing friends. IVF eliminates what a friend refers to as "bonking for babies," so we just BD for fun, which is nice. (Because I am so high risk, there is no BD'ing for us after PG is achieved.) We have a trip planned to Mendocino this weekend.

We are really looking forward to it. DH and I have been talking about going there for over two years now but as many of you know, when you are trying to schedule treatment after treatment, it is hard to plan for anything else. The non-necessary parts of life fall to the wayside.

Well I am rambling again. Thank you for letting me share this with you. Until next week!

Keep your eye on the prize!

Grace