I talked to an adoption agency because we're thinking that if I'm not really pg within a year or so we may go that route because we really can't afford to go into heavy duty IF treatments with no assurance that we'll have a baby. But, I was so upset because there's such a long waiting list that they aren't even accepting new applications and probably won't for a long while. They've have people on their list since 1997. I found some agencies online where you pay like $7000 for a 2 year "contract" and they find you a baby but that almost seems like 'baby buying' to me. I dunno. Maybe it won't be an issue. But I'm exploring our options.

I'm just inserting all my random thoughts in here tonight so I'll just put in that I'm loving keeping this journal. It'll be nice to look back someday and see what I was feeling now. I don't even know if anyone reads it but it's just nice to vent once a week. (Does anyone read this? Lemme know if you do :) I'd love to know) :)

My birthday is Sunday and Don's is the Sunday after that! My grandparents are coming tomorrow to see the house and take us out to dinner. I think they're giving me a lawnmower for my birthday. Yippie. We do need one, though. Ah, another year older. That's OK, though. Gotta go clean this house tonight, though, so I'm off. See ya next time.

-Jess