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Jerri's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 7/10/02 -------------------- 6/27/02 6/18/02 6/11/02 6/3/02 5/21/02 5/17/02 5/15/02 5/7/02 5/2/02 4/29/02 4/12/02 4/11/02 4/5/02 3/22/02 3/12/02 3/11/02 3/8/02 2/28/02 2/26/02 2/22/02 2/1/02 11/15/01 10/2/01 9/10/01 8/28/01 8/17/01 7/23/01 7/11/01 7/4/01 7/1/01 6/25/01 6/11/01 5/23/01 5/22/01 5/9/01 5/1/01 4/18/01 4/3/01 3/26/01 3/20/01 3/16/01 3/8/01 3/2/01 2/25/01 2/19/01 2/11/01 2/4/01 1/31/01 1/25/01 1/13/01 1/6/01 1/2/01 12/25/00 12/20/00 12/14/00 9/27/00 9/19/00 9/13/00 9/6/00 8/29/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/8/00 8/2/00 7/16/00 7/4/00 6/28/00 6/19/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 6/5/00 5/31/00 5/23/00 5/18/00 5/9/00 4/26/00 1/24/00 -------------------- Jerri's Introduction

November 15, 2001

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack! Well, first of all, I am confused a little. I have made entries since October 2nd but for some reason that is the one showing as my latest entry. I guess they got ate by the cyber-monster but I don't suppose there was a great deal of important information in them.

I am here with GREAT news. I am boarding the not-intentionally-ttc-train but definitely not-trying-to-prevent-conception-train. I am not sure what you call that train exactly, kind of like straddling the fence. So, I think I better back up a little. I have been on bcp since mid-July and have had a whole big blob of problems. The first kind of pill made me horribly sick. So, I finally got back to the doc (my old doc in Birmingham, nice) and got a different bcp to take. It hasn't necessarily made me sick at my stomach but it hasn't been a joy ride I tell you. I have cried the entire time I have been on this crazy hormone ride. I mean absolutely making me nutso. Then, to add insult to injury, 3 packs into using the bcp's continuously, I start cramping and spotting. Now that is weird. I have used bcp for 8 months at a time and not spotted, cramped or even known there was such a thing as AF, but I have been in and out of bed for over a week with cramps, headaches and junk.

So, I went to doc on Wednesday and he was not very enlightening. He says, it is pretty much endometriosis rearing her ugly head with a small cyst. He gave me my options and I only like the one that involves TTC. His suggestions were this:

1. Stop the bcp, have AF and go back on them and see if that helps. I WAS NOT AMUSED WITH THAT OPTIONS AT ALL.

2. Keep taking the bcp, add another hormone to try to help with pain. MORE HORMONES? IS HE NUTS!

3. He felt that Lupron was not an option b/c I have exceeded my lifetime dose of that by 12 months anyway. GREAT, THE ONLY THING THAT REMOTELY WORKED!

4. He felt that laparoscopy #9 was not a good option either. WELL, GOD LOVE HIM!

5. He said he would give me some pain medicine to help me get through this bout of pain, that would mean hormones, more hormones, and pain meds! YEA RIGHT! THE WHOLE POINT IN TAKING THE HORMONES IS TO AVOID THE PAIN MEDICINE, WHY BOTHER?

6. And lastly he said, "when are you planning to try to have children?" He reminded me that "IF" I get pg it is almost a cure for endometriosis in most cases. I responded to him by saying the first of the year. And, he reminded me that the first of the year was 6 short weeks away! OMG, I ACTUALLY LIKE THIS MAN'S THOUGHT PATTERN.

I decided to come home, speak to Wayne about how I was not taking hormones, more hormones and pain medicine all at once. (Is there anyone out there who questions "why" I have an ulcer?) I told him, we can use other forms of protection but the bcp's are not a part of my life right now! I just don't see the point in abusing my body any more than I already have by eating all that. And, the hormones were making me a crying-basketcase. That is the part that Wayne hates the most. And, of course, as usual, he was his adorable self. He just held me and held me and held me and let me cry and cry and cry. He agreed, no more hormones and we would just go with the flow. He did say that his reasoning for waiting until the first of the year was to ensure that the other man in my life was gone and not an issue any longer. December 1st, I will have been a resident of Alabama for 6 months and can get a divorce. Can I tell you all where I plan to be on December 1st? Well, ok that is a Saturday, make it December 3rd.

I may O one time between now and December and if so we will just play it by ear when the time comes. That will be the first O after coming off bcp so protection might be a good idea just for that reason. And, then again, it might give me a good strong O. Either way, we agreed to let it rest til that time. So, that takes me back to saying I am straddling the fence. Definitely once divorce is rolling, we are on the TTC TRAIN and with a vengenance.

I will be writing more often since I consider myself TTC and hope that the cyber monster doesn't eat anymore of my entries. I have sent a picture a couple of times and it never has been added to my entry. I will, of course, try again, I want everyone to see me and my prince (that is what my friends call him)!

Thanks for reading and I'm baaaaaaaaaaack!

Love,
jam