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Jerri's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 7/10/02 -------------------- 6/27/02 6/18/02 6/11/02 6/3/02 5/21/02 5/17/02 5/15/02 5/7/02 5/2/02 4/29/02 4/12/02 4/11/02 4/5/02 3/22/02 3/12/02 3/11/02 3/8/02 2/28/02 2/26/02 2/22/02 2/1/02 11/15/01 10/2/01 9/10/01 8/28/01 8/17/01 7/23/01 7/11/01 7/4/01 7/1/01 6/25/01 6/11/01 5/23/01 5/22/01 5/9/01 5/1/01 4/18/01 4/3/01 3/26/01 3/20/01 3/16/01 3/8/01 3/2/01 2/25/01 2/19/01 2/11/01 2/4/01 1/31/01 1/25/01 1/13/01 1/6/01 1/2/01 12/25/00 12/20/00 12/14/00 9/27/00 9/19/00 9/13/00 9/6/00 8/29/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/8/00 8/2/00 7/16/00 7/4/00 6/28/00 6/19/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 6/5/00 5/31/00 5/23/00 5/18/00 5/9/00 4/26/00 1/24/00 -------------------- Jerri's Introduction

August 29, 2000

This entry isn't what I had planned but it is definitely what I am feeling. Hopefully, I won't make you cry. I will tell you that I had the IUI this morning and the sample from Rodman wasn't great but better than last time. And, naturally, I have photos but am just not in the mood to share them right now. Maybe if the IUI works, I will be happy enough to just send all of them in with an entry.

OK, I don't want you to think I am upset because I am and any form of sympathy will cause me to cry, and I will cry loud.

First of all, I am about to cramp to death. I do not know why but this pain from the IUI has not subsided. That, however, is the best news I have heard all afternoon. I will first give you the humor, then the horrible news.

We went to the doctor. I broke down earlier and told Rodman that he was seeing a female urologist and among some very snide remarks, I came to realize it didn't really matter. She was quite professional and tried to make light of what needed to be helped along. She asked the standard one million questions. Then, did her exam.

Now the horrible news. The problem with his samples has been the low volume, low count, low motility, just low everything. Anyway, she said we could go through with the thousands of dollars' worth of tests and possible surgeries but still there was no guarantee. She said it was possible that an injury to the testicles or maybe steroids he took 15 years ago had damaged the testicles and some of that could be reversed with lots of surgeries but that it would get expensive. She said if we were interested, she would gladly refer us to a male infertility specialist. She also said that at some point and time the varicose vein could be removed and that might help but that she suspected the problems were much bigger than that.

So, we took our toys and we left the office. I was almost in tears and I do mean in tears. I couldn't, I just couldn't let Rodman see me cry. He has been so supportive with all that has happened to me, I just wouldn't allow myself to cry in front of him. OK, I have cried on your shoulder long enough. Please don't think I am a terrible person. I do love my husband, I have just always known that I wanted a house full of kids and today, I saw that reality possibly just dwindle into nothing.

So, if this IUI doesn't work, we are going to start concentrating on Rodman and Jerri Ann, you know, a house, a car, a vacation. Sorry to be so sad, but right now, I am just a sad lady.