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Jerri's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 7/10/02 -------------------- 6/27/02 6/18/02 6/11/02 6/3/02 5/21/02 5/17/02 5/15/02 5/7/02 5/2/02 4/29/02 4/12/02 4/11/02 4/5/02 3/22/02 3/12/02 3/11/02 3/8/02 2/28/02 2/26/02 2/22/02 2/1/02 11/15/01 10/2/01 9/10/01 8/28/01 8/17/01 7/23/01 7/11/01 7/4/01 7/1/01 6/25/01 6/11/01 5/23/01 5/22/01 5/9/01 5/1/01 4/18/01 4/3/01 3/26/01 3/20/01 3/16/01 3/8/01 3/2/01 2/25/01 2/19/01 2/11/01 2/4/01 1/31/01 1/25/01 1/13/01 1/6/01 1/2/01 12/25/00 12/20/00 12/14/00 9/27/00 9/19/00 9/13/00 9/6/00 8/29/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/8/00 8/2/00 7/16/00 7/4/00 6/28/00 6/19/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 6/5/00 5/31/00 5/23/00 5/18/00 5/9/00 4/26/00 1/24/00 -------------------- Jerri's Introduction

June 5, 2000

Hello. I had not intended to write again this soon but I’m just sitting at work, wasting some time while traffic clears up and I thought that instead of sitting here beating myself up with my thoughts, I should release some of my anxiety.

Today has been an extremely stressful day. I started the day out at the dentist, moved on to a dermatologist, and ended my day at the gynecologist having a lump in my breast checked out. My doctor wasn’t any happier about the lump than I am. I have had this for at least two years. I saw a doctor in the summer of ‘98 and was told that, "it is nothing, don’t worry about it." Finally, a couple of weeks ago, my husband made me realize that it was no longer a hormonal thing. That almost every day, I say something about it hurting. So, off to the good doctor I went. By the way, I have worked in between visits too. Anyway, the doctor said it’s time for a mammogram and ultrasound and she suspected that it would need to be checked into further. She was a little distressed because the area where she found the lumps (yes I said lumps, I thought there was only one, as it turns out there are several), is red and radiating heat. So, now I must make an appointment with a doctor at a breast clinic. My doctor seemed to think that if they were going to drain the lump or attempt to, that maybe they would do it while I was sleeping during the endometriosis surgery, hopefully it won’t be necessary but if it is, maybe they will do it then.

I feel as if I am rambling but this is not something that I was prepared to deal with. You know, I do my breast exams and I even brought it to my doctor in Alabama’s attention two years ago and felt reassured that it was "nothing." And, maybe it is just nothing. But right now, I am concerned.

My husband is very cautious about breast cancer and read a lot about it. I am not sure why he has such an interest in this but he always has. Needless to say, he was quite panicked with the news.

ON THE TTC FRONT
It is tough to really even think about this right now. Since my last AF was so incredibly strange, I asked for a PG test while I was there today and of course it was negative. She attributes all of that strange cycle stuff to endometriosis. I have never gone a full year without being on some time of hormone suppression for endometriosis since I was 16, I am 31 (just in case you forgot). Since July will be year since I quit taking BCP, it is a small miracle in itself that I have made it this long. Normally the pain is too much to bear. So, I will prepare myself for more doctor visits, breast clinic, more dentist visits, and more GYN visits and hope for the best. I will keep all of you in my prayers and ask that you do the same. Thanks for letting me share with you, and positive thoughts to all.

Love,
Jerri Ann