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Jerri's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 7/10/02 -------------------- 6/27/02 6/18/02 6/11/02 6/3/02 5/21/02 5/17/02 5/15/02 5/7/02 5/2/02 4/29/02 4/12/02 4/11/02 4/5/02 3/22/02 3/12/02 3/11/02 3/8/02 2/28/02 2/26/02 2/22/02 2/1/02 11/15/01 10/2/01 9/10/01 8/28/01 8/17/01 7/23/01 7/11/01 7/4/01 7/1/01 6/25/01 6/11/01 5/23/01 5/22/01 5/9/01 5/1/01 4/18/01 4/3/01 3/26/01 3/20/01 3/16/01 3/8/01 3/2/01 2/25/01 2/19/01 2/11/01 2/4/01 1/31/01 1/25/01 1/13/01 1/6/01 1/2/01 12/25/00 12/20/00 12/14/00 9/27/00 9/19/00 9/13/00 9/6/00 8/29/00 8/23/00 8/16/00 8/8/00 8/2/00 7/16/00 7/4/00 6/28/00 6/19/00 6/14/00 6/7/00 6/5/00 5/31/00 5/23/00 5/18/00 5/9/00 4/26/00 1/24/00 -------------------- Jerri's Introduction

January 13, 2001

Well, this will probably be a much longer entry that I am intending for it to be so just bear with me. I am going to start with what is pressing on my mind right now more than TTC. In the last two years, there has been nothing on my mind stronger than thoughts of TTC, but today I am moving forward, well just a little.

Earlier in the week I came home from work and my husband notices the “marks” on my tummy from my jeans. They are the same jeans I have been wearing for two years, yep, two years, but they are tighter now than ever before. He has always insisted that I look good to him and that he doesn’t want me to lose any weight. I thought that he was just saying that to make me feel good but in the last few months I have started to believe him. He doesn’t really even like to look at photos of me when I was really thin. But, when he saw my belly and all the lines that my jeans had caused he said, “OK baby, now it is time to do something.” I have suggested to him that I go to Jenny Craig before but he has always insisted that I didn’t need to go. This time, he said, if that is what you want to do, then go for it. So, today I went for my consult and signed up to get started. I took the lifetime membership, which was half-price.

I have heard a lot of people say that they didn’t think doing a program like that was a good idea because of the expense and that kind of thing. But for me, I know it will take an actual “plan” instead of me just saying I am going to do it. The lifetime plan allows you to go to your desired weight and then they give you six weeks of transition time to help make food choices outside of the pre-packaged Jenny foods and then I can go forever, if I want to, for maintenance. When I have lost half the weight that I have chosen, I will start to do regular foods two days a week, then at my desired weight, I will start the transition to do my own foods. I think that this is the only way to get into a healthy eating lifestyle and avoid the word “diet.” This is a lifetime plan! Once I have lost the weight that I have chosen to lose, I get half of the fee back that I paid to join.

If we get PG, I can put the program on hold and then resume it once I am ready, no fees or anything, and I will still get my refund when I get to my chosen weight. So, what weight am I talking about? I am not very modest and know that if you can look at me, you know how much I weigh probably so I am going to just tell you my plan. It helps if I look at it in writing too. I weigh 202.6 today. At 174, I go to two-day transition meals. At 140, I get six weeks of transition time. And then after that, I get the maintenance program.

So, that is what is going on right now. I know this is a TTC diary so I must explain that my doctors have told me on numerous occasions that losing some weight would benefit me in my TTC efforts. Of course I didn’t believe them but since it has been 19 months, four rounds of Clomid, and two failed IUIs, I guess it is time to heed the good doc’s warning. I also know that it will help me once I am PG if I am not overweight as far as having a healthy baby and a healthy delivery. It is amazing how we know all of this stuff but choose to ignore it all. I have a B.S. in education, physical education that is, so I know lots of facts regarding nutrition and exercise but just totally ignore everything I know. This disciplined approach is my way of making myself recall all that I learned those six long years of college that I have never put into action. I have a pretty regimented lifestyle and I am fairly disciplined in most areas of my life with the exception of meals. I don’t eat because I am depressed or excited necessarily, I just eat because it is there. That was part of my reasoning for choosing Jenny, someone to help me learn some discipline in my eating.

So, on the TTC front!!! After all, that is what we are here for!! I am CD#14 and it looks like another anovulatory cycle for me. I had the flu right at the beginning of this cycle and thought that I would just O later in my cycle than CD#9. But CP is still very very low and I have had no CM nor have I had my normal killer pains that I usually get with O. We did BD every other day this week just in case. I haven’t been temping so that isn’t something to check, I have a monitor and haven’t been using it either. I don’t know what my problem is, yea I do, just waiting on DH to get himself checked good. I did find out that my insurance will go into effect on Feb. 1 instead of Mar. 1 so that is good. We want to get an SA for DH and see what that looks like and then use the plan that I have written about in every entry for the last three months.

I knew this entry was going to get to be too long. If you have made it this far, I thank you and I apologize. Keep positive thoughts flowing and until next time ...

Love,
Jerri Ann