I have a feeling that this entry is going to be a bit long-winded as I need to vent some. I am sorry in advance for this because I will probably sound quite selfish at some time through this, but I have just about had enough. Here is why. As you all know, I had a run-in with my sister-in-law a few weeks back. Well, yesterday when I got home from work there was an invitation in the mail from Ethan (her son) inviting us to come to his first birthday party. I know that sounds quite normal but there is a few things that irritate me about it.

No.1: She only lives two minutes drive from us, so I don't know why she couldn't drop it in to us personally, but then again, she hasn't spoken to us since my DH rang her up to talk to her about her attitude towards me.

No.2: It was addressed to "Uncle Glen and Auntie Lea" and I hate being called Auntie. It is a personal preference, but I just wish she would respect my wishes and not call me that. Maybe I should say something to her, but it might not get me very far. She is the type of person that likes to do things to other people to get at them but hates it when it is done to her.

No.3: She didn't christen the kid because she thought it was just another reason for people to have to buy presents. I don't know what this is, then. If she had just rang us up and said that they were having a backyard barbie and to come over it would have been different, but she has turned this into a big deal.

Now you know how peeved I am. I really don't want to go, as I don't know if I could cope with all the petty crap that they would dish out. I am still really sensitive since the m/c and I honestly feel that DH's family don't give a damn. I want to look after myself first, but then I know if I don't go I will be the worst in the world. My Mum says I should go and be really polite so that they have nothing on me, which is probably the right thing to do. I have a month to figure it out. I will see what DH thinks. Maybe there will be something else on that day.

I don't think that DH's family really cares whether we have kids or not, to be honest, and sadly, I think DH feels the same way, Not that he would ever admit it to me. Arrrggghhhh. I feel a bit better now.

Well on to some good news, I think I am smack bang in the middle of ovulation at the moment. I have had cramps in my lower tummy for the past couple of days and it has been two weeks since AF, so with any luck this should only be a 28-30 day cycle. Providing I am not PG. We have not been trying flat out. LOL! But we have also not been 100 percent careful. We DTD the other night with no protection, so who knows. It was before I sensed ovulation, but we all know that it can happen a couple of days early. If it doesn't happen this month (and I won't be really disappointed if it doesn't) we will try properly next cycle.

WOW! I have said a lot, but I feel a bit better getting it all out, even if it is for the second time this week! I wrote an entry before this one and as I was about to post it, my internet server crashed and I lost the lot. Talk about annoyed.

Lots of positive thoughts to all.

Lea