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Lea's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 9/13/99 -------------------- 9/9/99 9/7/99 9/6/99 8/31/99 8/25/99 8/18/99 8/12/99 8/8/99 8/5/99 8/4/99 7/27/99 7/21/99 7/19/99 7/14/99 7/6/99 7/1/99 6/29/99 6/22/99 6/16/99 6/8/99 3/30/99 -------------------- Lea's Introduction

June 29, 1999

Well, I have been to see Bill (the social worker from the hospital) twice now. Once by myself and once with Glen (DH). I don't know if I am getting a great deal out of it or not. It is different from the last time that my DH and I went to see someone about our problems (we saw a counselor at the start of our marriage for problems that we had with his family, and it was the best thing we ever did). I think that this time I already know the answers to what I have to do but am just having trouble actually letting the feelings mend. Does that make sense? Probably not. Anyway, it has helped talking to Bill because it has allowed me to say what I want without anyone telling me I'm wrong or that I just need to take it easy and also that someone actually will listen to me. I am now hoping that DH will say something to his parents about being so insensitive just so they know that they hurt my feelings. So on the good side I feel a lot better and stronger about it.

Just to add more misery to the batch, I have decided that this would have to be the worst month I have endured in a long time! On Sunday night (it is now Tuesday) I found out that one of my closest friends is splitting up from her husband. We are friends with both of them and it is her choice so of course he is crushed. It is going to be a very hard few weeks. He has decided to go to Queensland (up the top of Australia from Melbourne) as his sister lives there and he is close to her. Don't know whether he'll stay for good or come back yet. I feel so weird being so happy with my own marriage when theirs is crumbling, but I am also so happy that there is so much love in my relationship.

Scrolling back up through this it sounds like my life is a total misery. Well, its not! The weekend just gone was absolutely beautiful, sun shining and actually quite warm, especially for the middle of winter. It was so nice that we got out in the garden and tended to our neglected backyard. We have one part that does not have lawn yet so we put some top soil down to help stop the mud, as my doggies tend to get very dirty, as they like mud! We also bought an apple tree so we planted that. I have to admit all the digging and raking made me suffer on Monday!

On the TTC front, I am yet to get AF after the D&C. It has now been four weeks and I am still waiting patiently! LOL. I have an appointment will my GYN/OB next Monday the 5th for a checkup after the D&C. Knowing my luck, AF will show up then and I will have to reschedule my appointment. LOL. When I do see him I will ask when it is OK for us to try again as when I last asked I was very upset and I don't think he really wanted to say to much. I will also find out if anything in particular caused the miscarriage, although I don't think there will be. It will be good to speak about it from the medical side just to make sure everything is 100% OK.

Well I think I have said enough for this entry, so I shall go and I will fill you all in when anything new arises.

Good luck and best wishes to all.

Lea

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