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Home › Diaries › Lea's › June 22, 1999

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June 22, 1999


Last week I finally had enough. I've realized that I am having a real hard time dealing with losing this baby. I have decided to see a counselor about it. When I went into the hospital for the D&C, the nurses offered me someone to talk to then if I needed it. Well, now I do. I have an appointment tonight after work. I have been a real cantankerous cow of late. My poor hubby doesn't know what has hit. I have also been very bitter toward a lot of people. I have had no patience and the smallest comment said to me really offends.

I went to my in-laws for dinner a week or so ago (which I don't normally do, as I don't really get along with them that well, but that's another story). I went because I didn't want to be home alone and DH goes without me normally. Anyway, my sister-in-law was also there and she has a 10-month-old boy. All night they only talked about her baby, how cute he was, how he did this, how he did that. I felt really uncomfortable and quite miserable actually. Not once did they ask how I was or if I was okay. I thought it was really insensitive, so needless to say I won't be going back. That is one of the reasons that I decided that I need help getting through this. I sound like a total misery case. I just never thought it would be this hard.

Well, for the positive side I am hoping that AF will show up within the next week. The hard part is that I don't know what my cycle will do this time round, but I did have signs of ovulation a couple of weeks ago; whether that was it or not I don't know. I'll just have to wait and see. I have never wanted my period to hurry up so badly in all my life!

I'll update after my counseling session to let you all know how this nutcase is going!!!

Lea



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