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Erin's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 4/12/00 -------------------- 3/29/00 3/28/00 3/15/00 3/8/00 3/3/00 3/1/00 2/16/00 2/2/00 1/19/00 1/12/00 12/8/99 11/23/99 10/27/99 10/20/99 10/5/99 9/27/99 -------------------- Erin's Introduction

March 1, 2000

TTC#1, Cycle 7 (15 months), Clomid Cycle 3, CD2

Well AF arrived yesterday and I was happy to finally see her since I already knew I didn't ovulate and was anxious to get onto the next cycle. I ended up having to take another 10 days of progesterone pills in order to bring her on though. So this cycle, starting tomorrow, I'm taking 150mg of Clomid. I'm really really hoping that this will be the cycle for me. I've heard it can take up to 3 cycles for Clomid to work so I have my fingers crossed. I just wanted to thank the lady who wrote into my feedback, "A concerned reader". Now I know that Clomid just doesn't work for some women. I'll be looking into Pergonal before I see my GYN again at the end of this cycle.

It makes me wonder about my GYN though. She is a nice woman, quite informative. I feel a little rushed when I'm with her though. She told me that the most Clomid she'll give me is 200mg and if that doesn't get me to ovulate then I should look into losing some weight before TTC again. I was a little offended by that. Yes, I know I'm overweight, I've been so all my life, but many women who are "big" get pregnant and have relatively easy and healthy pregnancies and healthy babies all the time. I guess if push comes to shove and I end up not ovulating even on 200mg then I'll just go see another GYN or a reproductive specialist. We'll see...

I'm finally getting better, I've had a fever and flu type symptoms for almost a week now. The fever would come on each day about 3 hours after waking and stay until I went to sleep at night. I haven't been sick in so long, I had forgotten how miserable it is. My mum made me homemade chicken noodle soup and dropped it off though!! :)

I keep having dreams about babies and breastfeeding. They usually are really bad ones too. I think it's because I'm so set on breastfeeding my children, in my mind there is no other option, that I'm worried about failing. In the other dreams which don't involve breastfeeding, my baby is always being taken away from me, so that I feel alone and detached from him. I always end up waking up feeling really sad and emotionally drained after having these dreams. :(

++++ thoughts to you all.

-Erin