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January 26, 2004
Happy Monday! (Bah! Bring on the snow days.)
The countdown is on!
I have 7 more days of BCPs. I will be very glad when I’m done with them. There is great irony in that statement...if you recall I am the great BCP proponent. I’m the one who pissed and moaned about how awful her cycles are sans BCPs. In fact, I was downright GLEEFUL about being on BCPs for IVF #2. That was until I spotted for weeks on end and was crampy and miserable the whole time too. So I had a brilliant idea for IVF #3—use the old BCPs of lore. The ones I was happily on for years—life will be grand, no?
Well that was a waste of a co-pay
My BCPs have let me down. Today is CD 14 and I’m still spotting. Sometimes it’s really heavy. So much for any pre-IVF frolicking with DH. I’m miserable, he’s miserable…And I spent $10 when I could have bled for free (I still have another pack of freebies from the RE). AUGH. Ah well, at least there is no cramping--BUT...
Well how ‘bout that
I’ve had a recurrent headache for weeks now. And my skin looks AWFUL. I have rosecea but it’s been pretty good since I stopped BCPs (despite having to give up my skin meds since they aren’t proven safe for PG). A clue you think? Alas, simple-minded me took it as a bad omen. I mean if my skin was bad on BCPs when my cycles were nicely ordered and controlled then it must be really BAD if I go off BCPs and have screwy cycles and clear skin. You see the logic? Since I’ve been on this brand of BCPs, my cheeks have regained that nice red rosecea “glow” and I have zits…on my right cheek, a few on my chin, and my nose. Oh God, my nose. I have two huge throbbing lumps there—I make Rudolph look subtle. Even Chris told me I’m a mess. I also have blepharitis (chronic inflamation of the inner eye lid--a nice rosecea side effect). Being on BCPs has flared this condition up too. Basically, my eyes are extremely dry and I often feel like I'm blinking my way through a sand storm. This is the reason I cannot wear contacts--despite having valiently tried every made and model out there. I'm doomed to eyeglass-dom until such time as I am not PG or TTC. Then I can have Lasik done (I researched this after IVF #1 failed...you can't be PG for 6 months after the procedure and even then being PG later on often means the procedure needs to be redone). Oh and did I mention the weight gain? I’m up a good 10 lbs from my ideal weight (this is about 5 from my usual TTC weight...the hormones really do a number on me so I’ve long since given up on my ideal size!). Ok, I know this isn’t bad—I’m not even close to being overweight, but I know that once I start stims I’ll pack on the pounds like everyday is an all you can eat buffet. There is no way around it, but usually it comes off after the cycle is over and then it repeats itself--viciously. Well, after my m/c I found myself always hungry and so I ate and ate and ate, but that was ok—I’d lose it when I went on BCPs (trust me this is what happened in the past). And now here I am in tight pants BEFORE my actual IVF cycle. This is not good. Pretty soon my once loose clothes won’t fit at all. I guess after all I did romance my love affair with BCPs. Sniff. Enough of my whining.
My cat, the bulimic
Fin has a rather bad habit. He likes to gag himself on the edge of our kitchen cabinets. To do this he jumps up there and hangs his head over the edge of the molding so that his neck is resting on the sharp point where the joints meet. Then he starts gagging and coughing. We yell at him to stop, but Fin is always in his own world and cannot be reprimanded. Negativity just doesn’t exist for him. At least once he’s actually made himself barf that way (we ended up with a nice pile of regurgitated cat food on the kitchen counter). Yum. So imagine my surprise when I walked into the library one morning and found a trail of cat yuke all the way down the entertainment armoire. Yes, folks, that’s six feet of cat barf followed by a lovely pile at the bottom (neatly splayed thanks to gravity). I just don’t understand this cat!
A lovely dinner party
On Saturday, we had one of my IVF buddies and her DH to dinner. We had a wonderful time—they are a great couple and are soooo funny. The things that were said about the “room” (aka beat-off central), Dr. H, his staff, and IVF in general were hysterical. We’ve decided that we’ll leave each other little items as a sort of IVF scavenger hunt at the clinic. ;) I was very pleased with how dinner turned out—we had pico de gallo, mango salsa, and guacamole with cheese enchiladas as the appetizer. Dinner was roast pork tenderloin with apricot sauce, roasted garlic potatoes, asparagus, honeyed carrots, and garlic twists. For dessert I made a three-berry crostada (rustic tart) with vanilla bean ice cream. YUM. I really enjoy cooking and baking and nothing pleases me more than when what I make comes out really well.
I hope everyone is well and, again, please stop by my talk to me board and say hi!
Jen
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