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March 28, 2000

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There are two ways to live your life.
One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is as though everything is a miracle.
Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

Hello ladies,

Hope everyone is healthy and doing well. Any good news to report? Not too much good news on my end.

First things first, thank you very much for all the kind words that you all have been sending me. I really appreciate all the prayers and thoughts. My family will be needing all those kind words, positive stories and prayers even more now. My Mom went in Monday for a bone scan so they could tell exactly where the cancer is and how far along it's gone. Tuesday (today) she got the results ... the cancer has spread to her bones and is in her legs, rib cage and her spine. How terrible it was to hear those words. I really have no words to express what I'm feeling right now. I feel sad, angry and sorry all rolled up in one. I know that this isn't a death sentence for my Mom but I can't help but think of what "might" happen or what "could" come of this. I feel so so bad for my mother's husband because he lost his first wife not too long ago and I would hate for him to go through this again. He's such a sweet, caring and generous human being that he deserves to "grow old" with someone right by his side. I only hope and pray that that someone is my mother. My Mom is taking this whole thing pretty hard since she "only" thought she had breast cancer. She was just getting used to telling people she had breast cancer and was getting stronger about having it, but now this.

This news has pretty much dampened her spirits, as I guess it would for most. I know that she's thinking the worst because she INSISTED I take her wedding ring set that my father and she had (my father passed away a few short years ago). I'm really trying to remain positive because my friend Heather told me about one of her high school teachers who had cancer in the spine and she beat it!!! I hope and pray that my Mom can say the same thing! Monday is when my Mom goes to speak with the oncologist and they will start treatment shortly after. My mother is a beautiful loving soul and I pray she lives a long healthy life. This brings me to another thing I'm feeling bad about. I'm an only child and my mother has no grandchildren. Since hearing the news about the cancer spreading to my mom's bones I want more than anything right now to be able to give her a grandchild. I'm going to feel really awful if my mother never gets to experience the joys of being a grandma. :(

Nothing to report on the TTC front. I'm currently on day 9 and DH and I will start BD tomorrow until day 15 so wish us all luck and PLEASE keep those prayers coming.

Thank you for listening to my thoughts this week ... t means a lot to me.

Best wishes and positive thinking to all!

~Jennifer

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