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Jennifer's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 12/31/00 -------------------- 12/18/00 12/10/00 12/3/00 11/20/00 11/14/00 11/8/00 7/7/00 5/24/00 5/16/00 5/15/00 5/2/00 4/26/00 4/16/00 4/12/00 4/11/00 3/28/00 3/21/00 3/13/00 3/7/00 2/22/00 -------------------- Jennifer's Introduction

March 21, 2000

Hope you're all having a great week! As for myself, things could be better...

First off, AF reared her ugly head a day early this month. I was pretty sure I wasn't PG anyway, because I had no symptoms and nothing unusual was going on with my body. I just had that "feeling" of not being pregnant, so it was no surprise that she showed. Since going off BC last September, I have had a regular cycle of 28 days but this month it was 27. I started having mild cramps about a week before "her arrival" so I was almost positive that March wouldn't be our month. When I told DH on the day she started I thought he would have a melt down! He's getting to the point where it's really starting to upset him. He never imagined all this would be such "work" and that we wouldn't conceive our angel baby right away. I almost dread telling DH now when AF arrives because he gets so down and upset about it. I think he feels like it's his "fault" and that in some way God is paying him back for all his past mistakes. I try to tell him that it's okay and that God will bless us with our angel when it's time. DH knows this is true but it's so hard, month after month, to stay positive about the whole TTC situation. Ahh ... onto another month ... April! Cross your fingers and say your prayers everyone!!! ;-) The good news is that at least I didn't waste any PG tests this month and I even had two sitting up in the cupboard. I'm so proud of myself for not cheating!!!

Another situation that has been going on in our lives is that my mother has just been diagnosed with breast cancer. About four weeks ago, she found a lump and went in to have it checked out. They told her then, after tests, that it was cancer. They did a biopsy and it came back negative so they told her it wasn't cancer after all, that it must just be a "fatty mass." My mom and her husband took a three-week vacation in Hawaii to do some relaxing and recooping and her doctor said to come back for another appointment to check out "the mass" after their vacation was over. She went back and they re-did some tests and it turns out that she has breast cancer after all. Turns out that when they did the biopsy the first time the needle went right past the cancerous area and they ended up extracting "normal" cells and that's why the results came back negative. So now we are all back on this roller coaster and trying to stay focused and positive. She has another appointment this week to find out more information on the type of cancer, the stage, etc., so I'll know more later. The doctors have told her that the type they think she has should respond well to chemo and that she might only have to have chemo, no surgery. I'll keep you all posted. Again, say your prayers for us!!!

As if all that weren't enough, I'm having some in-law problems that have also been occupying my mind. It mainly has to do with DH's SIL, but of course his brother and his mother come into the situation too. I'll explain more in another entry. I think this is enough to read for now!!! I don't want to bore my readers!

I miss everyone on Aimee's board and I'll check in as soon as permitted! Love to you all!

Best wishes and lots of prayers to you!

Jennifer