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April 13, 2001
TTC # 1 CD 13
I don’t ever think I have been as sick of sex in my life, I swear. If I have to strip down and “get in the mood” one more time, I’m going to take a mallet and smash myself over the head with it. Everything I see is beginning to look phallic to me, which is not a good thing.
All this to say, our TTC activity has gone from one end of the spectrum to the other. We went from missing fertile O days due to fatigue, travel, or whatever, to having sex every night (and sometimes in the morning as well) since Day 7 and let me just say – I’M TIRED. For you youngun’s out there (in your early 20’s), this is where I am really beginning to show my age. Now don’t get me wrong, sex is great, I love the sex life that I have with my husband, but not as much when it’s all contrived and with a purpose in mind other than just getting off. (Sorry for the specifics). Anyway, if I am not pg this cycle I can guarantee you all that two things:
1) I will at least feel like we did our best
2) I may have to go straight to IVF because I don’t think my body can take this constant sex action for many more cycles. I already feel like I need a week’s sleep to recover, maybe even an IV drip.
Mind you, it must be said that sex every day under normal circumstances is not at all the same thing as sex every day when you have been TTC unsuccessfully for a year or more. Also, let’s not forget that sometimes I get home at 8:00 and by the time I eat dinner, do my aerobics tape, clean, get my clothes and stuff together for the next day, it can be close to midnight sometimes. Not to mention, I get up at 5:30 – when the hell can we ever have sex without being dead tired??????
So before you all drop your jaws and exclaim that I must be frigid, I can assure you that I am not. I don’t know if any of you out there even have a remote clue of what I am talking about. My guess is that you do and just don’t talk about it. So I just wanted to let you know that if you are going through a similar experience, don’t worry, you are not alone.
The great thing is, that as much as Charles and I resent the unspontaneous sex, we still are having a lot of fun because we choose to laugh and laugh often to get through it. We see the bigger picture and realize this is all a means to an end. It is very nice having a ridiculously overactive sex life, I must admit, just tiring. Oh well, I figure at least I am burning some calories in the process – HAHAHA.
Anyway, I will be sure to keep you all posted.
I hope you all have a very Happy Easter this weekend. Charles and I are (THANK GOD) staying home. We have had guests for the past three weekends and I am sick to death of cleaning and everything else that you need to do to prepare for guests. And I damn sure don’t feel like driving two hours to my parents. They are having other guests anyway for Easter and I know they are disappointed, but I simply can’t. I need alone time with Charles, especially after the crap I had to endure last weekend. Get this scene:
Last weekend my BIL came to visit for a long weekend. He arrived on Wednesday and stayed through Sunday, and let me just say, I was ready to drop kick him into next week by the time he left. To make a long story short, this 43 year old man decided to sulk the ENTIRE time he was there simply because Charles beat him at golf. Charles never plays golf, has a low-budget set of clubs and has never taken a lesson. He plays MAYBE 3 times a year. MY BIL owns a set of Titleist Clubs, takes weekly lessons and plays every chance he gets. So, it was pretty unbelievable, (to my BIL), that he could be beaten by such an "unsophisticated" player. My BIL shot a 114 and Charles shot a 110 so this was obviously good reason for my BIL to have to sulk all damn weekend long. Yeah, right. He didn’t want to go out, didn’t want to sightsee, didn’t want to go to Georgetown or into Washington, D.C. – nothing! All he wanted to do was lie on the couch and watch golf and not speak to anyone. How 2 children can come from the same mother and be so completely different is beyond me. So, the long and short of this story is that last weekend sucked royally and Charles and I both really want to make up for it this coming weekend. We plan on not cooking a thing all weekend long (really healthy), and weather permitting, packing a picnic basket and spending it alongside the Potomac.
All I have to say on my final topic is Survivor=Snoozefest. This show cannot compare to the last Survivor at all, it is just so boring. Also, there is no one left on the show who I DON’T like, so that makes it really hard to watch because I don’t want anyone to get kicked off. I must say, I am pretty impressed with their ability to survive so long without food. These people look like absolute concentration camp victims, but yet they still are able to complete the challenges and live out every day. If I were on that show, I would have such an incredible fat store, I would be able to survive for a whole year without food.
On that note, I am about to go get lunch. We have a half day at work today and I plan on getting a ½ veggie sub from Subway, parking my butt on the couch, and reading a book.
I wish you all a very happy Easter, a wonderful cycle full of many ++++ tests. Congratulations as well to all of you who received a +++ this cycle.
Corinne
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