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Cindy B's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 6/8/01 -------------------- 5/24/01 5/15/01 5/8/01 4/1/01 3/17/01 2/16/01 2/4/01 1/24/01 1/19/01 1/8/01 1/2/01 12/18/00 12/12/00 12/5/00 11/28/00 11/21/00 11/13/00 11/7/00 11/4/00 10/31/00 10/24/00 10/17/00 10/10/00 10/5/00 9/28/00 9/20/00 9/9/00 9/3/00 7/30/00 -------------------- Cindy B's Introduction

October 24, 2000

We've had quite a week. We’ve been so busy and a lot has happened. Some good, some bad, I guess it all depends on how I look at it. First of all, we had guests from Indiana visit us! This was a really nice surprise. My father-in-law, Richard, who is a teacher at the local academy, had a colleague, Carol, who taught German and English way back in 1982. She was only there for a year and moved back to Fort Wayne, Indiana. Since then, Richard and some other colleagues kept in contact with her over the years. She has visited a couple of times and the last time was in 1996, before I met Stefan.

Anyway, one night I came over to the in-laws for dinner, and there was a strange woman in the room and she came up to me and said, “You must be Cindy.” Wow, that hit about a 10 on the shock scale when I heard her. The whole evening we chitty-chatted about everything. She is a librarian at the Allen County Library in Fort Wayne and the head of some department (I forgot which). She said that the library is the second best next to the Church of Latter Day Saints as far as genealogy records go. She just figured out who her family is (they all come from Germany) and brought her mother along so they could all meet. I have always kind of wondered who my ancestors were; I know some things but I have always wanted to know more. When Stefan’s parents dig out their family tree, it goes back five or six generations (!). I’m lucky that I know who my grandparents were. So she gave me a bunch of information that I can use to go about finding about my ancestry. Very interesting. I haven’t had the time, though, to look at some of the sites. She was such an awesome woman, though. She has seen so much of the world and knows so much. I want to be like that someday.

She stayed long enough to attend Rich’s 60 birthday fest, which was great! The whole family was there, even the ones who live in Munich, Fulda and Hamburg. And some friends of the family who moved to London recently flew down for the event. It was so nice to see everyone again. It was definitely a fun weekend.

Then Monday rolled around and I had my OB appointment at 4:30. I was kind of nervous the whole day. It was the first visit about TTC. Anyway, I had never been to this OB before and I just hoped that he would take my concerns seriously. The first thing I did was show him my temperature charts and he could see that I hadn’t been O'ing at all. Afterward, he used that magic-wand-looking thing and took an ultrasound of everything. It was nice because I could see everything as he was looking and measuring. He diagnosed me with PCOS (I really had a feeling about this), which I found out is called PCOS in German as well (for all of you out there who were dying to know) but said that my uterus was well formed and the right size and that my follicles look good considering the cysts. He did a lot of "hmm"-ing though, which kind of makes me nervous. He ordered a blood test and I will have to wait two weeks until the results come back. So I’m waiting (impatiently) for Monday, Nov. 6 to come.

I have really mixed feelings, though. On one hand I’m sad that I wouldn’t be able to conceive without medical intervention. All of the times I thought “this is it” were all in vain. But, on the other hand, I can’t change it and moping around and feeling sorry for myself won’t change it either, even though I still feel funny. But the positive thing is I finally know what is wrong with me and I can go about treating it. I think it would have been worse if the OB said that I was in tip-top shape -- then I would never know what is really going on. When I told Stefan he just looked at me, then he hugged me and said, “That just makes you even more special to me.” He said that as long as the parts are there, he has hope that they can be made to work. I think he’s right. I feel like a new chapter in my life has opened. I have been looking at various sites in the Internet for people who have PCOS and have found some good information and a lot of hope. I’m just going to have to wait until the 6th to see which course of action we can take to make me PG.

If anyone else out there has PCOS and is trying to get PG, please leave a message on my TTM board and tell me what kind of treatment you have had, if any! Thanks!

Love,
Cindy