I am still getting very excited about starting to ttc next month, but also feeling a bit more pensive about it all. I am finding myself imagining if I was pregnant now and how I would be feeling physically and emotionally. How would I be reacting differently to every day life? I am a bear in the hazy/hot/humid weather of summer anyway. Would I be too much worse with being extra tired and nauseous too? Good thing most of my pregnancy should be in the fall and winter! My favorite months of the year.

I am finding myself looking at the baby sections of the newspaper flyers again. I have collected the free issue cards for a few magazines. I have visited a few maternity clothes websites I found in a pregnancy magazine I bought already. And I have joined another message board for plus sized woman trying to get pregnant. I am going out this afternoon to Wal-Mart and plan on buying a pregnancy test to "be prepared!" I am also going for their air conditioning. ;-)

I still haven't told my mom that we are going to ttc next month. I know she will have a few things to say on the subject and I'm not sure I care to get into it all with her. I love my mom but she doesn't know the best way to support me sometimes. Example: she is always telling me I should lose weight but brings all kinds of bad food into my house. I know she has the best of intentions. In terms of having #4 I know she will not like that we are doing it now. I am very solid in wanting another right now, though. Being so close to my mom makes it strange to keep anything from her. I think I will tell her when there is actually a baby started, though.

I am expecting my period any day now through next Monday (can be anywhere from 33-37 days). If it isn't here by then I will go ahead and try the p-test next week sometime. I will let you all know what happens next week. Then the fun begins, either way!

Take care,
Kim