I got really scared and went straight to bed because it was too late to call a doctor. I tried to tell myself that in the 'Girlfriend's Guide' she says that as long as there are no cramps it should be okay. I had no cramps. I also tried to tell myself that the spots were so small they could easily be just from the placenta burrowing in deeper, especially since I have been taking baby aspirin and that thins your blood a little. Still it was a difficult night for both of us. A lot of hand holding and it took ages for both of us to get to sleep.

Of course I had to go pee about four times in the night, and contrary to my normal practice I turned the light on every time. There was no more blood, but I couldn't decide if that could just be because I had been lying down. As soon as the clock hit 9:00 a.m. I called the consultant gynae's secretary. It was a bit embarrassing as it was the third time I had called her in 3 days, but I explained what happened and she said she would talk to the gynae and call me back. About 20 mins later she did and said that he said that it as too early to really be able to see anything and that he was out of the clinic this week, but he has moved my first appointment up to next Fri. and if I see any more blood I should call my GP.

At the moment, despite not having seen any more blood I am a little scared and Jon flipped out the couch for me so I can watch TV and not get out of bed. I don't want to lie in bed until next Fri, but I think having today in bed will make me feel better. Typing this letter is the first time I have sat up all day, and I am finding that I am much more paranoid about all the aches and pains all of a sudden, especially little twinges I am having on the right side, which is not the side I think I ovulated from.

I am keeping the faith that things will be okay, but I will be so much happier in 10 days, by which time I will hopefully have seen a heartbeat. I suppose it is too much to hope that things will suddenly be easier, but as long as everything is okay in the end, I can live with whatever life throws at me.

Kim

LATER:

It has been almost 48 hours and still no more blood, so huge *SIGH* of relief.

A few people have mentioned to me that because the blood was so bright red and the quantity was so small that it may not have been from "up there." One person even said that she had had almost identical symptoms and it had turned out to be an ulcer on her vulva. Yuck and double yuck.

Still since I haven't seen any more I am starting to feel like whatever happened is now over and done with. I am thinking more about the fact that my pg journal says that tomorrow is the day the heart should start beating. Very, very exciting.

Also my boobs are lopsided. Has this happened to anyone else? I have never been noticeably lopsided before but as my boobs grow the one on the right is definitely overtaking the one on the left. Very strange, but it has given some great comic relief to the past few days.

I wonder if it will get more pronounced as time goes on? Hmmm.