I got an intestinal bug last week and it made me really nauseous. I had fun pretending it was a pg symptom, even though I knew it wasn't because it was intestinal not stomach. But then I gave it to DH, who promptly got a fever of 101. Then two hours later (last night) it went up to 103.4. I called the doctor and did what he said to bring it down and we have managed to keep it down to between 100-101. That is good and I love him very much, so please don't think I am callous when I say this, but now I am really worried about his sperm count. It wasn't very good to begin with and we have been doing the vitamins for two months now and thought that that should be really good. If I O on the clomid it would almost have been the whole three months since we started the vitamins and I was really hopeful that the count and morphology would be much better. Now this.

I was feeling so positive and now I wonder what was the point of managing to get the early appt. I mean, I know you aren't supposed to be on clomid for more than six months in a row anyway and if the first two or three are getting the dosage right, then I suppose that's okay, but what if I do O on 50 mg. It won't matter, will it, because there won't be any sperm for another 72 days, or 72 days from when his fever finally goes all the way down.

I feel so bad thinking this way, but I have waited so long to finally try and this seems so unfair. Jon never gets sick. He hasn't been this sick the entire time I have known him, why did it have to happen now, right before our big chance? I don't want to cry in front of him , it isn't his fault and he is sick and there is nothing he can do about it. Then today AF hasn't started and he said that he doesn't think it will, that it was just my imagination reading something into the high temps and imagining the sore boobs and that I am going to need the provera. I feel so alone. I really do think something happened. I can't remember my boobs being that sore and I felt twinges in my ovary and everything. The doctor said that ovary was enlarged so I was very prepared to believe that it could be a cyst rather than O, but that can bring on AF too, right?

I wish I knew how bad this fever is going to make things. I wonder if I should put off the clomid for another few months. I am too embarrassed to ask any doctors about it, it makes me sound so callous, like I don't care. I don't know what to do and it seems so unfair since things were finally starting to look up. If anyone knows anything about this or what we could do I would really appreciate any info. Anything would be better than just having to wait for another three months.