My u/s is tomorrow. I am getting a little nervous about it. I don't think the technician is going to gasp when they see my ovaries and immediately schedule a hysterectomy or anything, but this is the big doodah. At least the meeting with the Dr. is only a week away. I really don't think I could stand much more of this waiting. It is like waiting for someone to decide your fate. I wonder if any of these tests will explain why I have gained so much weight this cycle. I've gained about 10 lbs. When I first came off bcp nothing really happened and then when I think I O'd it was right around Christmas and I did my normal bloating, but this long cycle has just been gain gain gain. I dont know what I am doing. I have started excercising more and I'm not eating any more, but maybe it is all connected.

Wouldn't it be nice if they just said 'there is nothing worng with you except some hypothyroidism. We'll just put you on synthroid and everything will be normal.

That would be great!!! Too bad it's not going to happen.

This weekend one of Jon's good friends from college came to stay with us. She is a physiotherapist and really really nice. We ended up talking about everything on Sunday night. It turns out she got pg about six months after she and her boyfriend started dating and then miscarried at six weeks. They have been together ever since (three years) and are planning to get married and she worries about what will happen when they decide to start trying. It was really nice to talk to a live sympathetic person about all of this, not to mention that we had a really good weekend, too.

So now I just have to get through the u/s tomorrow and the week until the Dr's appt.

I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can I think I can.