Well, not too much NEW news... I'm currently on day #24. Yesterday I started spotting, kind of a dark tainted CM (sorry for the graphics) and it sent up my red flag, it's either the prelude to my period which is due to start on day #30 --. a week from now or its implantation spotting. And I'm doing my best not to think about it until I have to. I haven't bought a pregnancy test yet, and I usually have three or four in my cabinet already, and have used at least one. So, I'm doing better this month -- haven't been obsessing at all, although now that it's getting closer to the end of the cycle again, it's hard not to wonder. Even though I made an extra effort to de-stress this month and not obsess, I will still be very disappointed. This is just soooooo hard, I don't know what else to do. I do have an appointment for my yearly pap the first week of November... so I will be sure to ask lots of questions then. My doctor is great, but she is very busy and is very popular in our area, so I feel awkward making an issue out of being infertile for the last 7 months. She usually looks at me like a naive school girl and says, "Oh Jen, be patient, its very normal,".... and I want to say, " BUT, BUT, BUT, it's not normal for MEEEEEE! I want to be pregnant NOWWWWWW! FIX ME!!!!!"

On the home front, we got our hardwood floors installed and they look fabulous! I've started crafting again, which I missed during the summer, but was just too busy. Going to the craft store today to stock up on all my goodies...so hopefully I will have something better to report later. If not, I wouldn't be at all surprised. By the time you all read this post, it will be time to announce "her" arrival or NOT...again, yes once again. UGGGGG! * Can you tell I'm crabby*?????? Yes , and slightly sarcastic??

See ya girls...

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Jen