Well, still waiting, of course... currently on day #24 and waiting for AF symptoms to NOT show up, of course. Last month was a 27 day cycle and the month before that a 31 day cycle, so who knows. I can't even tell when to expect it. I will be excited if she doesn't show by the 26th... but since I have two tests waiting .... actually staring at me at home, I think I will test once on Friday and take it from there. Hopefully we won't need that silly second test, now will we??

This month has a been a doozy, as much as I've tried to NOT dwell on things or think too much about them.... I find myself floating off to baby land in my mind and imaging myself in different scenarios as a mother.... not even during the infant stages, but later on -- how I would deal with this or that. I've dreamt twice now about being pregnant..... haven't had any real symptoms though, besides high temps, (up from 97.5 to 97.9) and still climbing. Nipple sensitivity, not soreness, just very sensitive to any touch or occasional movement of clothing. Major heaviness in the lower areas, feeling bloated, tired -- but nothing really that stands out from the past few months that I swore were true symptoms. However, I'm not spotting yet, which in the past few cycles, I have spotted off and on during the last 2 weeks of my cycle, and nothing yet, so we will see.

Jake and I have been kind of crabby with each other, stress probably, but still, I feel almost PMSy. I don't want to be bothered, argued with or approached; kind of been in my own world lately. I think I will feel better after I KNOW something, whether it be good or bad, I'm just a knot until I know each month. Another concern of mine, is along with these friends and their upcoming babies, if we don't get pregnant soon, our child will be pushed into a different school year than the others, which sounds trite and trivial but our friends are all very dear and close to us, we do almost everything with them and I'd hate to be a year behind if only in school months. These things I think about, can you believe it??

I should be blessed with the fact that I'm even ovulating (smacking forehead).

jen