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January 29, 2001
Happy Monday all! It’s been a busy week (I say that all the time don’t I?). Lots going on as usual. Never a dull moment!
Let’s see… where to begin… I guess with the job scene. In my last post, I talked about a new company that I was going to try and get a job with. Well, things have sure progressed in one week’s time! After posting my entry last week, I called this company. I spent four hours in their office on Friday filling out paperwork, interviewing, taking three exams, and talking with the director. I also took a photo for an I.D. badge. Suffice it to say I think I’m hired. They said they would have to check my references and would get back to me. Well, I know that won’t be a problem and so I am pretty sure the job is mine… especially since I took the I.D. picture and filled out the W-4’s, etc. I am really excited about this job because the potential for earnings is really good!
Now, that does leave me in a bit of a dilemma as far as my current job situation goes. I work two other jobs as it is and will definitely need to quit one of them. The hard part is which do I quit? I think it’s going to be the job from home. Right now the work is slow. While I LOVE the idea of working from home, the money is not there like it is with nursing. As I said in my last entry, there is currently a nation-wide nursing shortage (literally going into crisis levels) and so I know that I’m pretty much guaranteed work in this field. It’s only going to get worse too. Right now, nursing school enrollment is WAY down, nurses are burning out left and right and the liability of the job is extreme. Combine that with the fact that the baby boomer generation is just now beginning to retire and the need for geriatric healthcare is going to skyrocket, and it leaves an ugly picture.
I could go on and on and on and on about how CRAPPY nurses are treated in this country. I know there are a couple of other diary-writers who are also nurses. I would be very curious to see what they thought about this.
Well, things are looking up for my father-in-law. He had his heart procedure done at the hospital I work at! He had this done this past Tuesday and went home the next day. He did very well and didn’t have any major complications so I’m real happy about that. He has been recuperating at home. I think he actually went back to work today.
As far as my condo goes, we have had people looking at it just about every day this past week. That makes me feel real good. I am really not in a hurry to sell… the thought of moving right now does not sound fun at all, especially because it’s so cold right now. The hard part is keeping up with the housework. We have to have this place looking like a “showroom” at all times and that can be a real drag. We also have to be up early on the weekends, which bites. Oh well, such is life when you’re trying to make a sale.
Today’s stats are as follows: TTC#1, C#3, CD#45 – yup, you read right… day number 45! I was really hoping that today would be CD#1 of C#4… but I guess I’ll be waiting for that. Last cycle was 44 days long. I was really hoping this one wouldn’t be as long, but it’s longer. I have not been very good about taking temps this cycle. I think the reason is that I started doing it mid-cycle and it really means nothing. Once AF shows up, I will be diligent. As far as checking CM, it’s a moot point – there isn’t much to check. Again, I think all of this stems from the fact that I am probably not ovulating and it is probably because of my weight.
I had a pretty big breakdown this past week where that is concerned. I basically broke down in tears and told my husband that I am having a MAJOR problem with my self-esteem right now, directly related to my weight. I have so far to go to reach my ideal weight. I think sometimes it overwhelms me to the point that it seems so far out of reach that I give up.
8 years ago, I was right where I needed to be. I was working out six days a week. I was the perfect weight. I had extremely regular periods that were 30 days long and I ovulated on day 14 EVERY month. Now, nothing. I had a health issue that made me stop exercising *temporarily* - well, that temporary state turned into a permanent state (not because I couldn't, I just never motivated myself to get back into it and the weight has piled on). I wasn’t trying to get pregnant until now – so I never cared until now. I think part of the problem that I am having is that I feel like I did this to myself. So many women are doing what they are supposed to be doing and still can’t get pregnant – whether it be an anatomy problem or a cycle problem. For so long, I had all the parts working together and in unison and now I am not ovulating – all because I let my body go!
It’s a real motivator though. I basically know that unless I lose some weight, I’m not gonna ovulate and there won’t be a baby. ARGH. It’s probably been one of the best motivators I’ve had.
Well… I think I’ve rambled enough for one day. If anyone has read this entry through to the end, thank you! If not, don’t blame you a bit. I will write more next week… this coming week we are having our taxes done and hoping to get a decent return. Also, my 2nd wedding anniversary is coming up on February 12th. So lots to look forward to!
Lots of baby dust to everyone!
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