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Cherylyn R's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 1/22/01 -------------------- 12/26/00 12/12/00 11/22/00 11/13/00 11/8/00 10/31/00 10/24/00 10/17/00 10/11/00 10/3/00 9/12/00 9/5/00 8/29/00 8/21/00 8/15/00 8/1/00 7/28/00 -------------------- Cherylyn R's Introduction

September 5, 2000

Hi, ladies! Let me just say that I HATE public computers!!! I hate the fact that everyone can read what I am writing and that you can have the most annoying people seated next to you!!!! I wish that I could SCREAM. OK, that is out of my system now!

I hope that everyone had a nice holiday weekend! My DH and I went down to southern Indiana and camped with his mother. It was nice. Hot, but nice! Currently I am on CD21. I really don't think that there is any chance of PG this month. I O'd while camping. Of course I knew that I would. DH wanted to BD with his mother in the camper with us. I don't think so! I do have a question for everyone out there. I had EWCM in May and in June but since then nada, nothing good at all. How much Robitussin to take and when to take it?

I have been really down this cycle. My mind has been on my miscarriage a lot and seeing PG women everywhere I go does not help matters any. Every time I see one it just makes me think that I would be four months along now.

I was upset when it happened but I think I mourn the loss more now then I did at the time. I knew that I had good CM and that we were on the right track. Now I seem to have dried up and I feel like it is hopeless. Anyway because of this I thought that I would share with you my story.

I really don't agree with the little blurb on my diary. My DH and I were not trying when we got PG so how can we be trying again? It was my first cycle charting and DH works second shift. I know the whole 6 p.m. rule but that is really impossible with us! It was still early in my cycle so we thought that we were OK. We had sex and that night when I got home from work at 9 p.m. I noticed my EWCM. I had just been bugging Tony about waiting only until April 2001 to start TTC so I was really not looking forward to telling him. Needless to say, we did not do anything until four days after I O'd. From the day we had sex to the day I O'd it was six days. I thought that there was really no real chance. Meanwhile, we took a vacation to Tennessee. While down in Tennessee I managed to break my thermometer! Believe me it was not a nice sight! AF was supposed to arrive while we were down there but, she didn't show until the day we came home. I was having major cramps so I took some Aleve. That was CD14. By the next day no AF and still cramping. I said something to DH and he basically said that there was no way I was PG. On day 18 I took a HPT while my husband was at work. It was faint but it was positive. I had a friend come over to check to make sure I wasn't just seeing what I wanted to! I went to the doctor on CD 20 and that night I miscarried.

I guess I was like everybody, I didn't think that it would take this long to get PG again. Although this is only my third cycle after, it feels like it has been forever. I have more days now of wanting to shut myself up and cry than I did in May. I feel the ache inside of me more with the passing of each day and month. I had what I have wanted for two years. I had it and I lost it. I think that it had impacted me more than I will ever know.

On that note I think I will end this now. Sorry that this was such a downer entry! Good luck to everyone and ************* dust to us all.

Cherylyn