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Jayme's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 10/6/00 -------------------- 9/13/00 9/4/00 8/30/00 8/21/00 8/9/00 7/29/00 7/25/00 7/21/00 7/20/00 7/18/00 7/3/00 6/29/00 6/23/00 6/20/00 6/13/00 6/12/00 6/6/00 5/26/00 5/23/00 5/22/00 5/17/00 5/15/00 5/13/00 5/13/00 5/11/00 5/6/00 4/29/00 4/22/00 4/21/00 4/4/00 3/29/00 3/13/00 3/11/00 3/2/00 1/8/00 -------------------- Jayme's Introduction

October 6, 2000

This will unfortunately be my last entry with the diaries. You have all been great and helped me through the hard times I have gone through struggling with infertility.

I have made some really good friends through these diaries and know that this will not be the last time I will talk to ya'll again. I will be lurking and seeing which one of my precon pals will be pregnant next. I love you girls and wish nothing but the best. You will be in my prayers and hopes.

My desire to have a child has not changed at all. I still love children and want nothing more than to be a mother. I suppose the struggle of trying for a child and nothing happening for so long took the edge out of my marriage. I guess it was not strong enough to keep us together. Ian and I are separated and don't know if this means the end or just a break. Regardless of what this means, we are obviously not going to be trying to have a child any longer. We have a lot of things to work out first. I grew up in a broken home and remember feeling sad seeing my friends with their mom and dad together. I don't want to put my child through that. I want to have a strong foundation before I bring another life into it.

Ian and I have been together for 10 years and we both feel that this is not the end of us. We will always be a part of each other's lives whether as friends or husband and wife.

This is a very difficult thing to deal with; but, Ian and I are trying to make it as easy as possible on the other. It could be a million times worse. I hope to hear from all of you very soon. Thank you again for allowing me to share all of my feelings with you all and for the times that you gave me a shoulder to cry on (cyber-speaking of course).

Don't give up. Keep your eye on the prize. Remember, there are little angels in heaven for all of you and they are just as impatient as we all are. They want to be with their mamas and daddys just as bad as you want to be with them. They will come. Just never give up and get your chins up. Love you girls.

~Jams