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Jayme's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 10/6/00 -------------------- 9/13/00 9/4/00 8/30/00 8/21/00 8/9/00 7/29/00 7/25/00 7/21/00 7/20/00 7/18/00 7/3/00 6/29/00 6/23/00 6/20/00 6/13/00 6/12/00 6/6/00 5/26/00 5/23/00 5/22/00 5/17/00 5/15/00 5/13/00 5/13/00 5/11/00 5/6/00 4/29/00 4/22/00 4/21/00 4/4/00 3/29/00 3/13/00 3/11/00 3/2/00 1/8/00 -------------------- Jayme's Introduction

May 26, 2000

If y'all were following me on my "Talk to me" board, then you already know the bad news. I am not pregnant. I feel like following that with "of course!" That would not be positive, though! Actually, my GYN was really cool. She jumped right on top of things, which really surprised me. She gave me a prescription for prenatal vitamins (I have already been taking them) and a referral for Ian to go to a urologist for a semen analysis. If he is okay, then in three months she wants me to schedule a lap. She had a nurse come in and discuss BBT charting. They gave me these charts and asked me to record EVERYTHING! When I BD, if I even take an Advil, and if I am not PG by the scheduled lap, then I will bring them in then and they will see what the problem is.

Here is a little tip from my GYN that could help everyone. She said that until I have my ovulation day down, to BD every other day during CD#10 through CD#21. Then NO BDing. Next cycle, BD during CD#12 through CD#23. Then, I should have some idea when ovulation occurs or if it occurs.

I tested right before my appointment so I could know what to discuss at my visit. It was negative. I was soooo upset, I was literally shaking and felt light headed. After I talked with my GYN, she made me feel really confident. I have help now! I'm serious guys, I feel really good.

Don't get me wrong. I still have an ache in my gut because I have no baby. I really wish I was PG this last cycle; but, I am okay. No tears shed, just a lot of hoping and praying that I won't need that lap in three months. I have cut back A LOT on my caffeine intake. I only drink about two Mountain Dews at work. Otherwise, I am drinking water. Smoking is something I have to work on.

To be perfectly honest, I was really angry on Thursday. I felt like in some way God was wronging me. I was angry at myself because a long time ago I was in love with a man who treated me very badly. He passed on STDs to me that could cause infertility. I was angry in general. I realize that it was wrong of me to be angry at God, I am still highly ticked off at that jerk; but, no longer ticked at myself. I was angry at Ian, which was wrong. Man, was I UPSET!

I'm okay now. I just had felt extremely betrayed by my body. Thank you to everybody he showed me so much support through this. You made me feel like I was not alone. Sorry for the false baby alarm! Good luck to Christy in her next nine months. I'll say a prayer for you. Good luck to all and keep your chins up! ++++ vibes!