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Jayme's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 10/6/00 -------------------- 9/13/00 9/4/00 8/30/00 8/21/00 8/9/00 7/29/00 7/25/00 7/21/00 7/20/00 7/18/00 7/3/00 6/29/00 6/23/00 6/20/00 6/13/00 6/12/00 6/6/00 5/26/00 5/23/00 5/22/00 5/17/00 5/15/00 5/13/00 5/13/00 5/11/00 5/6/00 4/29/00 4/22/00 4/21/00 4/4/00 3/29/00 3/13/00 3/11/00 3/2/00 1/8/00 -------------------- Jayme's Introduction

May 13, 2000

Hey people! I know that I have been posting a lot lately. This month has left me with a lot on my mind. I am really wondering hard if I just shouldn't wait until the end of September. I have been trying for so long now and I would feel like I am failing and throwing in the towel if I stop now. If I were to get PG now, though; I'd have to stay here at my job that I am not happy with for even longer. I can't leave here with my health insurance and get new insurance. They would consider a PG as a pre-existing condition. I really want a baby on the other hand.

Yesterday, I went to the hospital to see my friend who had a baby. She had a C-section a few hours before my visit. She was NOT looking good. She was in A LOT of pain! I had only seen vaginal births and they were walking around a few hours afterwards. I saw the other extreme of having a baby and it terrified me. I am also really scared that, what if I was not a good mother? I am very impatient at times and I have a temper. I don't know. It also may be that I am trying to de-sensitize myself. I don't know. Watch me become PG now that I am trying to wait until I get my new job/new insurance... That would be just my luck. I'd just be happy anyway and have to stay here at my job.

We are trying to get my baby, Lance's (my mini schnauzer) hair cut. No one will accept him. He freaks a lot when he hears loud noises and at times gets so scared he has seizures! He NEEDS his hair cut or he'll have a flipping heat stroke! And man, he is STINKY! Well, I am going to go back to work... Talk again later