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Janet L's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 11/7/00 -------------------- 10/30/00 10/24/00 10/18/00 10/10/00 10/3/00 9/26/00 9/19/00 9/9/00 9/5/00 8/29/00 8/23/00 8/15/00 8/8/00 8/1/00 7/23/00 7/14/00 7/8/00 -------------------- Janet L's Introduction

August 29, 2000

Hi everyone!
It's been a rough week for me. AF showed up on Monday, which was day 37 of my cycle. My cycles are very regular, always between 29 and 30 days. I knew I O'd late this cycle but my temps were higher than they have ever been and I was so sure this was it!

I've had more than one good cry this time around. I felt so deceived by my own body! My temps have always let me know exactly what is going on. This time they indicated that I was PG only to find out I wasn't. Isn't it sad that I am angry at myself for getting my hopes up? I want myself to expect nothing so I won't be disappointed month after month!

Just to top it off I was driving to work Monday morning, the day AF arrived, and I saw a convertible car driving in the lane next to me. There was a little girl in the car, probably about 2 years old or so. She was climbing from the back seat to the front seat and there was no car seat in the car. Of course at this point my emotions are raging and all I can think is: Why does this person have a child and I don't? Not only is this child not in a car seat, she is not even buckled up with a seat belt! This woman is obviously not concerned for this child's safety, but she has a child and I don't. Where is the justice in that?

Thanks to some great advice from one of the PG diary writers (you know who you are), I took a hot bubble bath had a glass of wine and stopped feeling sorry for myself. My pity party lasted a couple of days and I am ready now to put it behind me and start a new cycle! Today is CD#2 and I start taking Clomid tomorrow. I also received my fertility monitor just in time to start using it this cycle. I read the instruction book inside and out and am getting excited about using it!

Congratulations to Tammy and Anne B.! I am so excited for both of you!

Have a great Labor Day weekend!

Janet