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August 6, 2003
Hello everyone. I hope your week went by well. Mine did. This past weekend we went to Bear Lake with a few of our friends to stay at their cabin. It was incredibly relaxing and I’m glad that they gave us the opportunity to stay with them up there. We had a good time seeing the caves, wading in the lake, and just relaxing. The only bad thing about it was that they had a skunk die underneath the cabin and EVERYTHING smelled like it. Even our clothes when we got home. But it was a great weekend.
Then on Monday was our two-year anniversary. We didn’t do anything special beyond going to have ice cream that night. It was a quiet day.
I realized reading over my last entry that I hardly talked about ttc and where we are currently. The reason for that is before my forced break, I thought about it all the time. And I didn’t think there was anything wrong with it, other than the fact that I was really upset when AF would show. But during my forced break I realized that I had been getting more and more depressed over it and I was giving up the things I love because “I might be pg!” I also realized that it wasn’t worth it so I try not to obsess about it anymore. Sure I take my temp every morning and wonder about it sometimes but it doesn’t consume my whole life like it did. So if this journal reflects that, good. But I will tell you a few things about this cycle.
I have a friend who is a herbologist and she let me read a bunch of her books. So I’ve been taking a few herbs the last few months and I feel that it’s really helped me. A word of caution: Because my friend is a licensed herbologist she is able to give me advice on it and I okayed it with the nurse at my doctor’s office. Herbs are not for everyone and you should always check with your doctor before you start taking them. Anyway, I have been taking 1000 mg of Vitex, 2000 mg of Evening Primrose Oil until O, and then 2000 mg of Flax Seed Oil after O. Also, I take my prenatal, 100 mg of Vitamin B, and 500 mg of Raspberry leaves. I just started taking the Vitamin B so my long cycle this time is probably because of it. But everything else has been helpful. My cycles are more normal; I have great cm and not as much PMS. So I’m pretty happy with them.
Also this cycle I am temping. Which I have been for awhile and it’s nothing new. I try really hard not to be obsessed with my temps because I notice when I do that, my mood is either up or down, depending on the temp. I figure it’s not worth it and I just like the reassurance that I do O, because that’s my biggest fear. So far this cycle I’m 5dpo today. So I guess AF will probably show right as we leave. Frankly, I’m sick of taking her on trips! I don’t expect to be pg this cycle, and I’m just waiting for a good job with insurance to go to an RE in DC.
I did want to talk a little bit about Utah today. Only because I’m afraid I’ll miss it tremendously when we go back east and I want to compare lists of things I think I’ll miss and things I’ll actually miss. When I moved to Utah from Colorado, I felt stuck in a box because Salt Lake City is on an enormous lake bed and the mountains surround you on all sides. I felt like the mountains were always watching me and I couldn’t get away from them. I got used to them after awhile and now I think I’ll miss them the most. The mountains here have such a presence over you and over everything. No matter where you go, there are mountains. I love seeing them in the spring and fall when the tops are dusted with snow. They look like paintings or cardboard cut outs a lot. I love to stare at them and I love to live near them. I also love the way the valley looks at night from the mountains. It seriously looks like someone has scattered jewels on black velvet at the bottom of a large bowl. And on the rim of the bowl, you can see the sapphire line of the Kennecott Copper Mine lights. Kennecott is the second man made object visible from space. It’s a strip mine, or basically a huge hole in the ground. If you visit Utah in the summer, that’s a very cool place to go.
I will miss driving up the canyons and seeing the trees and feeling the cool breezes there. Even though Utah is a desert, there are a few rivers that come through the canyons and help keep temperatures cooler. The high elevation has something to do with that too. I will miss the snow, but I’m sure they have snow in Virginia, right?
One thing I won’t miss is the lack of water. Utah has been going through a 6-year drought and all of our lakes and reservoirs are dangerously low. Things get so dry here and wild fires break out. It makes it hard to fight them with very little water.
Jeff says he’s going to miss being able to see the valley. He says it’s comforting for him to be able to see from one mountain to the next and everything in between. He likes being able to see his boundaries. I will miss the wide openness of the west. And the wildness of it too. I like being able to drive somewhere and not see any houses or any other living thing for miles. I suppose we did that in Virginia too, but the trees blocked my view of any buildings.
I will miss my friends here, and I know Jeff will too. But we’ll be able to make new friends and I really hope Jeff enjoys school.
Probably the biggest thing that I will miss is our family. Jeff’s parents and brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews are all here, and all close. Jeff has 2 brothers and 2 sisters and he’s the baby. His oldest brother has 3 kids, 12, 9, and 6. The next sister has 5 boys, 12, 10, 7, 5, and the baby is just a few months old. The next brother and his wife are pg, after 8 years and 2 IVFs. They are having a boy in December. Then the last sister has one girl who is 3. It’s fun to be so close to our family and all the kids love Uncle Jeff. I only have one older brother who has been married about a year. I have a bunch of cousins and aunts and uncles that regularly get together to just be together. It’s been lots of fun to be with our family and I will miss the companionship that they give a lot. But there’s always email and instant messaging and phone calls.
Whew, this is long enough. See everyone next week!
--Always, Cat
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