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Candace W's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 4/17/02 -------------------- 4/14/02 4/11/02 4/7/02 4/5/02 4/1/02 3/30/02 3/19/02 3/5/02 2/25/02 2/21/02 2/18/02 2/5/02 1/27/02 1/6/02 12/3/01 11/21/01 11/15/01 11/6/01 10/23/01 10/16/01 7/10/01 6/11/01 6/3/01 2/18/01 2/4/01 1/24/01 1/15/01 1/8/01 1/1/01 12/18/00 11/28/00 11/21/00 11/13/00 11/6/00 10/30/00 10/23/00 10/16/00 10/10/00 10/4/00 9/25/00 9/20/00 -------------------- Candace W's Introduction

March 5, 2002

I tested positive on my OPK today. I wish I could be getting excited about it, but I’m not. I’ve also had quite a bit of ewcm, but it doesn’t matter. I don’t know why things never seem to work out for me, but they just don’t. I was so excited about this first cycle, and I know I haven’t been trying at all, but I feel like I’ve been trying for over a year.


Anyway, Al got the flu, and we didn’t bd at all this week. At all. Nothing. There’s no chance of pregnancy for me. I am so angry, so disappointed, but now I guess I get to look forward to C2. In another month, maybe it will be my month. Just not this one.


Also, I have been very sick this week, every morning at around 5:00 a.m. I have to wake up, because I am so nauseous. This is someone who gets up at 6:50 on school days, and would rather get up at 9:00. I just can’t sleep. I feel better by around 8:00, but it’s driving me nuts. I would be fine with it if there were the possibility that I were pregnant, but I’m no Mary. I am just tired of waking up and gagging and wanting to throw up. I am so tired when I go to bed at night, it’s ridiculous. And then to get woken up feeling like I am going to retch, it just pisses me off. And then to hear Al gripe he’s too sick to bd makes it even worse.


So, while there’s still a chance to get pregnant this cycle (if we bd this very second) that’s not going to happen. I guess it’s still possible if we tried tomorrow, but I told Al to forget it. I just don’t care, because I’m angry about missing the other 5 days that we planned on. So, why bother? I also have the stress of my exam to worry about, as well as grading a batch of labs for tomorrow. I also have a project due in my Green Chem class.


Anyway, all hell is breaking loose here, so I have to get going. I hope you all have better luck this month than I.


Candace

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