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February 8, 2004
WARNING TIRED PREGNANT WOMAN WRITING: SPELLING AND GRAMATICAL ERRORS TO FOLLOW
I know that I should be in bed but I wanted to update on the longest week of my life. Is everyday going to pass by this slowly? I feel like I am counting every second until I hear a heartbeat. OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE? YES.
I was so tired last week. Fell asleep at 7 pm twice only to wake up for a while and then back to bed. I actually forced myself to run errands after work so I wouldn't get into that habbit of napping during the evening. While I love to sleep, it is very hard for me to sit still. I love to do things, projects for the house, arts, crafts, scrapbooking. I wish that I could stay home fulL time and do my projects but then I wouldn't have the $$$ for them.
I did tell a couple people at work and they are so supportive. I did tell a couple of friends who know everything about me...figuring that if anything bad happened (m/c) that they would know that to. I did avoid telling one friend who would want to play the "devils advocate" and make me question myself for getting pregnant. She is happy with her one and only (but I think she did mention before that she sometimes wished she did have another). I don't want any rain on my parade.
The symptoms of pregnacy have appeared. Yeah? Yeah! yeahhhhh. TIRED/Fatigue. I find myself so 'short' with people. Usually I am the most patient person I know (at least at work I am) but last week I was counting the hours till I was done with work and I found myself more annoyed with little things. I have decided to leave my job in 6 months. I will explain more on this later but basically it comes down to LONG HOURS AND A LONG COMMUTE. I really love the people I work with and the job is good but I only get to see my family for a few hours a night before we are sleeping. With the baby coming....well I wanted to take sometime off. If I save my pennies I will be able to take a few months off (hopefully a year) when the baby comes. Hopefully DH will be bringing in a income by then, if not he will have to learn alot of baby care STAT. I am so looking forward to that time. SHORT TIMERS SYNDROME, yes.
I am so used to having $$$$ so learning to scale back is going to be a difficult thing to do but I can't see working to just pay childcare. However, we will see. Never say never. I am putting the cart before the horse. My sister returns to work tomorrow and has told me that infant care for a 3 month old will cost her 800 a month. That plus the 400 a month for her other child. OUCH. Fortunately she does make enough to affort this and bring some $$ home but still, that can't be an easy decision to make. I used to think that I would never want to be a SAHM but now that sounds very appealing. I have worked since I was 16 years old with only a few years off for college. I just wonder how I make the life transition.
I have also decided that if this pregnancy is jeopordized (m/c :( ) then I will have a consolation prize of a nice fancy vacation for 2. Gosh, this doesn't sound 'right' but that was my plan for this summer anyways.
DH is so happy about this baby. I got him a book called "cool names for baby" that will be his Valentines Day gift. Keeping It Simple Sisters. KISS. I just can not believe how commercial Valentines Day, like many other special days, has become.
So a few more days until I am 6 weeks along. Can't wait to schedule the PRE-OB appt. WOnder if the assistent will ever return my phone calls? Don't you just hate that?
Ok, finally you say,
Buenas Noches amigas
Annie
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