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April 18, 2002
I'm know really sure how to start this one off with the bitterness I had at my last one. I guess I'll just tell my story, once again.
Friday at work, I started bleeding and assumed that AF had shown her nasty face once again. I bled pretty heavy, so I just knew that she was here. So I was a wreck at work, muddled my way through the say and went home to pitty myself.
I had called the Dr's office and told them that I wanted to take a much deserved break. They wanted me to come in since last time I had huge cysts in my ovaries, and so that they could do the thyroid and prolactin tests once again. I made the apt went in and I had no cysts. WHich was great. So as I'm leaving, the nurse was looking at my ultra sound results, and said that my lining looked really thick for just having a cycle. So I had to go and get more blood work drawn. I knew what the results were going to be, so what was the point. I knew I wasn't pregnant. This was Monday at 1 pm.
Well Tuesday, I get to work at 8 and my voice mail light was flashing. I listen and it's Cindy from the Dr.'s office. Saying for me to call her immediately. She also called the house and left a message there stating the same thing. I tried to call, and the office wasn't open yet. So I wait until 8:30 and she was with a patient. So I'm thinking something is wrong, the blood work got lost or what have ya. Finally at 10:15 am she calls me back. Her exact words were "Amber, my instincts were correct. Your results are positive" I was in total disbelief! There's no way. I asked her if she was sure they were my results and she started laughing at me, telling me yes, that they were my results. My HCG level was a "60". Now keep in mind that I wasn't actually supposed to find out if I was pg until the 17th. SO I had to go back in yesterday to see if my levels changed. Well about noon I got the call. My levels jumped to "168" So I guess it's official I'm pregnant!
I'm so scared. I don't know how I should react. I've been through this twice before. Both ended terribly. I'm praying so much that this is it, that this is the one. The Nurse just gave me a big hug at the office yesterday and told me a "very guarded congrats!" and the Dr. even came in a gave me a squeeze and told me that I was keeping things interesting around there. I'm not one to really ask for a whole lot, but please pray for us and our baby. I don't want to have to go through another miscarriage.
So how I told J. I stopped at the store and I was going to buy a HPT and take it and tie little pink ribbon and a little blue ribbon around it and leave it lay in the bathroom. Well I ran into my MIL at the store, so needless to say, we aren't telling a single sole until we see a heartbeat, and I'm released from the specialists to my regular OB.
Anyway, I grilled some steaks and made a couple of baked potato's. Then I waited for him to get home from work. He comes in and I was re-warming the steaks. He turned and asked me if the Dr. had called. I said, "Yes" and he says "Well, what did he say?" I stated, "He said, congratulations, Amber, you're pregnant!" He started crying, I started crying, and we just hugged. I got him a little card, and told him how much I love him and all that other mushy stuff. :-)
We had a good night.
So anyway, I'm still taking my baby asprin, and my prometrium. And knock on wood, so far things look good. But I'm still scared to death. I don't have any symptoms other that indigestion after I eat, and going to the bathroom 100 times a day. My boobs aren't sore yet, like they were defore, or any sickness, nothing. I'm sstill so worried.
Thank you all for the posts. We were really ready to take some time off and take a nice relaxing vacation. Then Boom, Surprise! Which don't get me wrong, I'm extatic about, but still trying not to get my hopes up in the same breath.
My next apt is Monday 4/22 at 9:15. They will do an internal u/s. Hopefully we will see our little peanut!
Stacey, I know your ret. is today. I'm thinking about you! I hope thing go great!
Take care all of you and good luck to you all!
Hugs, and ++++++++Baby Dust++++++++
Amber
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