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Recovering well

October 27, 2007

I didn't go back to work until this past Thursday. I wasn't able to pick up anything over 10 pounds but my co-workers helped me. I was able to take the bandages off today. My stomach is still sore but I went the whole day without any pain pills so that's a step up. Work went ok this week. There was some drama. One of my co-workers had to be let go this week. It was done suddenly so it upset a lot of people but unfortunatley it had to be done. I made an appointment for Raymond and I to see an IVF specialist the second week in November. I nearly dropped the phone when the nurse told me that the consultation fee was $300.00 and I almost said never mind but this is one of the best clinics in Los Angeles and if Raymond and I are going to go through this then we want to be at a place that will give us a fighting chance. We are putting it in God's hands on how we will pay for this but we have decided to move forward and try IVF. So for now our dreams of moving to New Jersey will have to be put on hold because paying for this procedure will really tie up our finances so moving anywhere for a while will not be an option unless some kind of financial miracle comes along. Which we are not counting out but we are just being realistic. I think that I'm going through my final stages of grief over knowing for sure why I haven't concieved. In so many ways it's like saying someone you cared about is dying or has died. To know that something that you wanted so badly is not a possibility for you is tramatic. I can be honest and say that I have struggled with not being depressed or not to blame myself. As always I know that I will be fine and this is just another step towards our dream of having a baby.

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