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Middle of May Already??

May 14, 2007

CD3

TTC #1 Since December 2005.

Yup, still don't like typing that. Well as you can see af came. I had a really good 2ww. I was calm and relaxed, it was great. Well, I had decided to test early on Friday when would have been like 12 or 13dpo and got a bfn. Then af graced me with her presence on Saturday. I have a not nice 5 letter word for her that I cannot type because I am pretty sure it will be censored. Oh, well.

I am a little bitter and upset today. I actually took the inital 2 days of getting af really well, but today I have not been doing well. I think it might have been the fact that I had to tell lots of wonderful ladies that I am not pg...again. and we all want to be pg so bad it's not fair. I have also been feeling like a little kid. It's not fair, and I don't like it.   (They don't have a smiley face that is pouting) But I have the best internet friends and they are encouraging and let me complain to them. You guys are the best!

Besides that, we are offically on a break. Not preventing, but not trying. That basically means that we aren't doing the SA and we aren't doing clomid. I am not happy about either of the two, but Jake doesn't think we can afford kid right now and he is the one who has to do the SA, so I don't have much of a choice. I have voiced my opinoin about this, but I guess we should both be on the same page before getting pg. Although even if we get pg we will still be super excited. I think I will use my Fertility Monitor this month because I am curious if I will o without the clomid, so we will see what happens.

I hope everyone had a good mother's day. It was hard for me because I seriously ache for a child and wish that I had one. So, seeing my niece was rough this weekend. My husband will be an absolute awesome father and it sucks that we don't have a child yet. I know though. I have to be patient and trust that God will give me one.... when I am ready. So, I will wait and God if you are ready. Could you hurry it up. You made me an impatient person why make me wait. .  Have a great week.

Shannon



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