I spent a good couple of hours yesterday reading past diaries. It all started because Tiffany posted about her hsg and I wanted to look at how she felt at the time. So, I read all hers. Then I was thinking about the other girls and I read more.  And I have realized that pretty much all our expectations are the same. At the beginning of the month, we are bummed because we got AF and that means no baby, about a week later, we are rejuvenated at the thought of ovulating and the best part...bding. You ladies know what I am talking about.  Then we got into the 2ww and it's analyzing everything, am I feeling nauseous, tired, peeing more. Anything! Then we wait and pretty much contemplate things, like I am now, like how will it be would be different and how all we want is a little baby of our own to hold. Then if AF shows it starts all over again. The reason for my contemplating it that I think I actually ovulated this month. I know, I know. Something I have said before and I don't know that it has happened. But I have some proof.

On Tuesday morning I stumbled my way to the bathroom as usual and peed on my stick. I put it in the fertility monitor and got in the shower. As much as I would really like to stand there the 5 mins it reads the test, I know that my luck isn't all that good. But guess what. It told me that I had peak fertility. OMG, OMG. I told my cat and he could have cared less. Granted, this was after I kicked him off the toilet seat so I could read the manual again to see if I was supposed to be ovulating. So, he was pissed. But the most interesting part is when I took the test stick out I looked at the lines on the stick and the one was darker than the other. The test line I mean. I don't know if they work like an OPK, but man I was excited. I told Jake as soon as I got home we were doing it tonight and I didn't care if he was in the mood or not. He wasn't, but I still got my way. Yah! So, I am hoping that we will actually get pregnant this month and we won't have to do any the tests that we are supposed to do.

Speaking of tests, my dh is seriously getting on my nerves. My doc is awesome; she wants all the info right away to see where to go from here. Well, my dh (I don't mean darling or dear) doesn't want to do his SA. I understand that he is embarrassed and it's one of those things, but come on. I really don't want to have blood drawn or injected with dye and all I ask is that he goes and does his thing in a little cup. We have come to a bit of a compromise, I think. He will do the test IF he can go and pick it up and come home and do it. Thank you Mike for having to do this when you and your wife were trying to get pregnant. My doc is very against it, because I guess it is an expensive test (I guess??) and they need to do some of the tests really quickly. Well, I talked to her nurse today and he can do it the way he wants, but there are time restrictions that he doesn't know about yet. They pick up from the hospital here M-F 11am and 3:30pm, I think and 11am on Sat. He has to have it there within 20mins of their pick up time, fresh, to have it sent to another hospital, but after it is checked for mobility. It's so complicated. So, we will have to see.

Also, if we are paying out of pocket for this, I am almost leaning towards doing my tests and if they come back ok, which I have no idea. Then doing his SA. I called my insurance company and she said they cover diagnostic tests, but no infertility stuff. So, I went to talk to our HR lady to see if she could tell me if it was covers, but she is out for the afternoon. Fun, fun. Whew. I think I can take a breath now.

Other than that, we will bd again tonight for good measure and hopefully this will be the month and we won't have to worry about the insurance covering anything.

Have a great Week.  And stop by and talk to me.

 Shannon