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I'm pregnant??? 10.20.07

October 20, 2007

Don't get too excited, that isn't confirmed information... just read and be as shocked as I am right now :)

Let me tell you the facts...

Last month we had sex once... just once.  And, it was purely for fun, because we began looking into adoption.  I've been trying to prepare my heart to accept a child who isn't from me, and praying that our families accept that child and treat them no differently than my neice, who is blood related.  This hasn't been an easy battle...

My cycle started approx one week after our one and only bd'ing experience this month.  It started really slow, spotting like, and continued on for seven days... yes, seven days.  I rarely had to use anything to prevent stains... but it wouldn't stop!  My cycles usually are 3 days and heavy for the first two.  So, it was very unusual.  However... I didn't take any meds this month either.  (my cycle just stopped thurs into fri morning).

Last night my mom and I were driving to go to eat and I had this overwhelming dizzy feeling.  It was like I was walking diagnally (sp?) and the world was going too fast.  ...I don't get ear infections, and I don't get dizzy.  It was odd, very odd.  It lasted off and on for about an hour.  I also, while eating, saw two people who looked different... and by different I mean the man had on a tupee that was totally abnormal, and the woman he was with was wearing a wig and was white but had on makeup that made her face look black.  It confused me as to why these people would come out in public looking this way.  In my mind I immediately began pondering the idea that they were going to take the restaurant hostage and that I would give my life up to help others get out safely.  My mom went to get more food (we were at a buffet) and I burst into tears and was litterally weeping when she got back to the table.  She asked what was wrong and I demanded that we leave so that we would be safe... explaining that I had a horrible feeling that something was going to happen and that I just wanted to talk to Eddie and tell him how much I loved him and to pray that God would forgive any misdoings/sins that I'd committed.

Today was fine... nothing unusual or exciting.  Until tonight when we went to my mom's friends surprise party.  We had finished dinner and were sitting around watching people dancing.  This woman (who I've never met, talked to, or known) walked up and sat at the chair next to me and asked me who bought me a car last winter... well, I used my mom's credit to get a better rate, and technically she "bought" the car.  So, that was ironic.  The woman then went into a rant about different things, naming names of people I knew... she asked who Ruby was.  Well, my great grandmother died two years ago, and her name was Ruby.  She then said Ruby was praying for me, and said to "stop worrying, it'll be fine".  She then asked who "bob" was... which is Ruby's son and his son (my dad and grandfather are both Bob's).  Then she said "who is having a boy?".  Well, the only person I know that is pregnant is my cousin and she's having a girl!  So I said "I don't know, nobody I know" and she said "Who's Amanda?".  I shockingly said "me" and she said "you're having a boy, there is blue all around you".   She talked about a lot of other stuff, giving me more confirmation, and let me know that it was only through God that she had these gifts, and that this was all information that God gave her.  She also confirmed that the doctors said that dh and I should be able to have children just so long as I stop worrying.

Later she talked about the miscarriage and said that it was a boy also.  Which, was a shock, since no one at the party, except my mom, knew about the miscarriage.

So... am I pregnant????  Who knows... but yeah, the pessimest in me says "nope".  Next month we'll see.  But I thought it was a good bit of a story to tell you :)

Take care, and we'll see if she's right!!

Amanda