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Aaaany day now... 5.1

May 1, 2008

cd 28, normal cycle, approx 32 days...

no idea if I o'd, no idea when...

we bd'd a couple times in the same week (uh, three or four, which is good for us).  This is also the week I would suspect I o'd... but again, have no idea, except for time frame.

symptoms, that are driving me "crazy"...

heartburn

exhaustion

mood swings (lemme tell you a quick story, read the end)

weird pinky/dark yellowy brown cm about 7 dp~o

previous breast pain (not so common anymore)

breaking out... rarrh (could that also be from all the chocolate I'm now consuming??)

crampiness that sticks to one side and doesn't last very long

emotional instability (crying/screaming all together at the same time for no reason)

possible psychosamatics... urination, breast increase (could that also be my new bra or tighter fitting shirts??)

During our first and only pregnancy (that m/c over 2 years ago without warning) the only symptoms I had, looking back were heartburn and moodswings... similar to those I'm presently experiencing.

mood swings (aka, manderz is a beeotch) story...

took the day off to take my dogs to the vet for their vaccinations.  I got there ten minutes before the vet closed (it's a walk in clinic), and they said that they wouldn't treat my dogs.  I explained that I took time off work and that we had ten minutes and I didn't see what the problem was, since we've been going there for five years and have walked in at the last minute several times without any problems.  The receptionist said that she was leaving for lunch and wouldn't be there to assist the vet and refused to take ten minutes of her lunch to take care of my dogs.  Well... my dogs are my babies and even with my mom there, I told the receptionist we were going elsewhere... anywhere, I didn't care so long as they put the animals first, over their lunch.  I then went into a rant about where I worked and how if there were problems on the floor that I would be first to volunteer my time and my lunch to help and how I was a human being and obviously she wasn't.

That led into me calling her a lazy b*tch and several other f-u's and even a "you're on some bull shiznit, lazy ah hem".  ...in a public place  ....with my mom   ...in the middle of the day  ...out of nowhere.  (please remove the covered up swear words and add what you'd expect a hormonal psychopath to really say, and use your imagination to really get into the fact that yes, indeedey do, I did that, said that, and regret that).

Good times, very professional... really.

Anyhow, between that and going to church bawling my eyes out for an hour, or bawling my eyes out this past monday over stress... I really wonder where my emotions are at right now.

Either I am, or... I'm going psycho.  (my money's on the psycho one...because surely it couldn't actually happen, right???).

Love peace and chicken grease wishes to you all...