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1.23.07 crazy-wild night life...

January 23, 2007

Setting the scene...

In the background you hear Billy Joel's "In the Middle of the Night"...

I'm laying in bed, wide awake, and unable to go back to sleep.  It's partly the back pain I've been having for about a week now, and party because Eddie (dh) won't stop this monsterously loud snoring thing he's had going now for too long to even talk about... but I digress... I'm awake, it's 3am, and all I can do is obsess about this crazy battle I've been going through for almost a year now... ttc.

I consider that we're both "trying" without "trying" right now... because I've barely taken a temp and really haven't followed whether I've o'd or not... or when, or whatever.  We've been actively "baby making" or "love making" or "doin the deed"... whatever term you want to use in this aspect.  We've enjoyed one another more than we have before... and we truly know what sex for enjoyment is about now.  (which rocks by the way!).  I've been taking my "cinnamon extract" pills frequently and dh has been using his testosterone cream too... just as prescribed.  So... are we pregnant yet or what?

Wait... (now, remember it's 3am and I'm in a dense fog of stupid confusion, cause well, it's 3am).  Didn't I miss a period in November?  And wasn't my December period very light and nearly, non-existent?  Could I really be nearly three months pregnant?  Yes, see this makes sense.  This is why I come home from work so exhausted that I can't make it past the couch (of course it's not the monster-snore machine next to me waking me up throughout the night... duh).  THIS is why I have to chow down on tums about every five minutes or so.  (not the spicy food, of course) and this, my friends, is why I'm such a wench when it comes to fighting with Eddie and whoever else angers me (not because I just genuinely like to fight for my side to be heard).  So yeah, at 3am, in a fog of disillusion, I've decided I'm 3 months pregnant (and that's the only logical sense... cause originally I was counting five months).

How funny was it that the next morning my back was so horribly in pain, and some crazy-wild constipation made me feel like "Dear God I feel like I'm in labor!". 

...before I even got used to the idea I threw it in the toilet.

Hehe... anyhow, seriously, Eddie keeps trying to convince me to test, but I'm going to wait til around valentines day.... cause I think (based on cm) that I ovulated yesterday or the day before and we did it the night before.  So... who knows?

God bless you all... and hope that you got a decent laugh out of my stupid psychotic night life!

Amanda