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I'm back in the game:O)

October 28, 2006

CD 1, Cycle 19, Met Cycle 6, TTC #1 since May 7th 2005

Hello ladies,

well it looks like I am back in the game, so hopefully I will find the time to post in my diary a bit more often than once a month.

We went to see the specialist on the 26th which turned out to be quite uneventfull and nothing like we had expected. We turned up at 10:15 ready for our appointment at 10:30. We were called almost on the dot and taken into a consultation room where we met the consultants registrar rather than the consultant himself. At first I must admit that I was a little disapointed to say the least. I had wanted to see the consultant that we had seen before as he would have a much better understanding of our situation, but after a few minutes of talking to this new Dr I started to feel alot more relaxed. He was very nice and had a very good bedside manner and was very friendly. He firstly congratulated me on a good weight loss (18 pounds aprox) and then asked me about my cycles and how they had been. I told him that they had regulated, well seemed to have regulated from 28 to 31 days which he seemed pleased with and I also told him about last months strange cycle with all the bleeding. I then told him about my concerns about Endo and as expected he didn't seem bothered enough to schedule a Lap, so I wont find out whether I have it, unless I have to have more tests if I still can't get pregnant. He said that really, so long as the endo doesn't cause infertility problems , the best possible cure is to get pregnant and advised that we just get on with TTC, otherwise I will have to wait longer and then may have to wait for treatment etc.  So I decided just to trust them  and wait and  see what happens.

So, the next course of action is to have Follicle tracking to see if I am O'ing on my own. If I am, we are to try for 6 months and see what happens. If I am not O'ing, then we are to be put on a course of Clomid for three months and see what happens and go back for a review appointment with the Dr in 4 months. I suppose if we still have difficulty in TTC after that, they will then delve a little further into why it's not happening.

One piece of really good news was that DH's SA, his 2nd one was normal and they were perfectly happy with it, so yay to studmuffin DH who will be able to get me pregnant, if we can just get my body to work! So here I am ladies, back in the world of TTC and ready to join you all in this whacky race to have a baby

So what has happened this month of October? Well it's been eventful actually what with the above and what I am about to say. So, it was Oct 2nd, the day before my birthday and I was sitting with DH watching TV in the evening happily anticipating the next day as I would be going to the SPA with my best friend Claire. The phone rings and it's my mother. She says "I have some bad news" well in those few seconds my heart stopped as all the worst possible things went through my head, she continued " Penny (my cousin) has tried to comit suicide and is in a bad way in hospital" well you know when your heart thuds in your chest, eveything goes quiet, your blood runs cold and all you can hear is your heart beat thundering inside your head, this is exactly the way it was for me. My mum didn't really know much more and said that she would let me know her condition as soon as she found out anything else. Well as you can imagine I didn't get hardly any sleep that night and spent my birthday worrying about my silly cousin and whether she would live or die. Well that evening my mother phoned to say that Penny was stable but they wouldn't know the extent of the damage for  weeks.

Well once she was out of hospital I saw her and we chatted about what had happened. It is so difficult to get through to someone that is in this bad a way and thinks that the world is better of without them, that infact they are wrong and will be sorely missed if they left it. She will be recieving counselling and hopefully this will help her work through some pretty serious life issues that none of us were aware of. So please pray for my cousin, who is going to be fine, that she has the strengh and courage to face her life and get on with it and not be a coward and take the easy route out. God be with her, sending her all the love and comfort that she needs.

Apart form that, I had an Okay birthday, got some nice things, a necklace, some money, a pretty trinket box and the spa day from DH. And I don't think anything else happened really that is worth talking about.

Oh, my beautiful friend Starr who had been TTC for 2 years and 9 months with unexplained infertility is finally pregnant after her 3rd and final IUI. I am so happy for her as she has been so patient and given a great deal of support, she really deserves this, so again I wish her a HHNM.

Anyway, that about wraps this past month up and now looking to the future, I hope that I will be pregnant soon.

Tiffany, thankyou for your message on my TTM board. Yes I am fine and as I said, I hope that I can update a bit more often now. I am so glad to hear that your DH's biopsy came back negative and wish you good luck for this cycle of IUI. It's got to happen for you soon, so stay patient. It's great to hear that your RE was so supportive.

Amanda, I enjoyed your video and wedding picks, you look beautiful and your veil was absolutely gorgeous.

Anne, keep the faith, it will happen for you eventually, at least you have that beautiful new little puppy to look after,  plus of course her big sister:O)

Good luck to all you ladies and love to all,

Baby Dust,

Helen xxx

P.S. I forgot to mention I started a new diet called the Cambridge diet. It's pretty radical and I needed to get my GP's signature as it could be dangerous. But I was fine and the doc signed me off. It involves taking 3 Cambridge meals a day which are milkshakes, chewy bars and soups. You have three a day and that's all, until you are ready to move up the steps and slowly re-introduce food back into your life and build your metabolism back up. So far in the first week, I lost an incredible 10.5 pounds , so I only have 14 pounds more to go until I am at a healthy weight:O) I'll keep you updated, oh and I also have a rotten cold:O(



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